’KNAPWATER HOUSE
September 20th.

’I find I cannot meet you at seven o’clock by the waterfall as I
promised.  The emotion I felt made me forgetful of realities.

‘C.  GRAYE.’

A great statesman thinks several times, and acts; a young lady acts, and thinks several times.  When, a few minutes later, she saw the postman carry off the bag containing one of the letters, and a messenger with the other, she, for the first time, asked herself the question whether she had acted very wisely in writing to either of the two men who had so influenced her.

IX.  THE EVENTS OF TEN WEEKS

1.  FROM SEPTEMBER THE TWENTY-FIRST TO THE MIDDLE OF NOVEMBER

The foremost figure within Cytherea’s horizon, exclusive of the inmates of Knapwater House, was now the steward, Mr. Manston.  It was impossible that they should live within a quarter of a mile of each other, be engaged in the same service, and attend the same church, without meeting at some spot or another, twice or thrice a week.  On Sundays, in her pew, when by chance she turned her head, Cytherea found his eyes waiting desirously for a glimpse of hers, and, at first more strangely, the eyes of Miss Aldclyffe furtively resting on him.  On coming out of church he frequently walked beside Cytherea till she reached the gate at which residents in the House turned into the shrubbery.  By degrees a conjecture grew to a certainty.  She knew that he loved her.

But a strange fact was connected with the development of his love.  He was palpably making the strongest efforts to subdue, or at least to hide, the weakness, and as it sometimes seemed, rather from his own conscience than from surrounding eyes.  Hence she found that not one of his encounters with her was anything more than the result of pure accident.  He made no advances whatever:  without avoiding her, he never sought her:  the words he had whispered at their first interview now proved themselves to be quite as much the result of unguarded impulse as was her answer.  Something held him back, bound his impulse down, but she saw that it was neither pride of his person, nor fear that she would refuse him—­a course she unhesitatingly resolved to take should he think fit to declare himself.  She was interested in him and his marvellous beauty, as she might have been in some fascinating panther or leopard—­for some undefinable reason she shrank from him, even whilst she admired.  The keynote of her nature, a warm ‘precipitance of soul,’ as Coleridge happily writes it, which Manston had so directly pounced upon at their very first interview, gave her now a tremulous sense of being in some way in his power.

The state of mind was, on the whole, a dangerous one for a young and inexperienced woman; and perhaps the circumstance which, more than any other, led her to cherish Edward’s image now, was that he had taken no notice of the receipt of her letter, stating that she discarded him.  It was plain then, she said, that he did not care deeply for her, and she thereupon could not quite leave off caring deeply for him:—­