He had perceived his error in making his kindness to Owen a conditional kindness, and had hastened to efface all recollection of it.  ’Though I let my offer on her brother’s—­my friend’s—­behalf, seem dependent on my lady’s graciousness to me,’ he whispered wooingly in the course of their walk, ’I could not conscientiously adhere to my statement; it was said with all the impulsive selfishness of love.  Whether you choose to have me, or whether you don’t, I love you too devotedly to be anything but kind to your brother. . . .  Miss Graye, Cytherea, I will do anything,’ he continued earnestly, ‘to give you pleasure—­indeed I will.’

She saw on the one hand her poor and much-loved Owen recovering from his illness and troubles by the disinterested kindness of the man beside her, on the other she drew him dying, wholly by reason of her self-enforced poverty.  To marry this man was obviously the course of common sense, to refuse him was impolitic temerity.  There was reason in this.  But there was more behind than a hundred reasons—­a woman’s gratitude and her impulse to be kind.

The wavering of her mind was visible in her tell-tale face.  He noticed it, and caught at the opportunity.

They were standing by the ruinous foundations of an old mill in the midst of a meadow.  Between grey and half-overgrown stonework—­the only signs of masonry remaining—­the water gurgled down from the old millpond to a lower level, under the cloak of rank broad leaves—­the sensuous natures of the vegetable world.  On the right hand the sun, resting on the horizon-line, streamed across the ground from below copper-coloured and lilac clouds, stretched out in flats beneath a sky of pale soft green.  All dark objects on the earth that lay towards the sun were overspread by a purple haze, against which a swarm of wailing gnats shone forth luminously, rising upward and floating away like sparks of fire.

The stillness oppressed and reduced her to mere passivity.  The only wish the humidity of the place left in her was to stand motionless.  The helpless flatness of the landscape gave her, as it gives all such temperaments, a sense of bare equality with, and no superiority to, a single entity under the sky.

He came so close that their clothes touched.  ’Will you try to love me?  Do try to love me!’ he said, in a whisper, taking her hand.  He had never taken it before.  She could feel his hand trembling exceedingly as it held hers in its clasp.

Considering his kindness to her brother, his love for herself, and Edward’s fickleness, ought she to forbid him to do this?  How truly pitiful it was to feel his hand tremble so—­all for her!  Should she withdraw her hand?  She would think whether she would.  Thinking, and hesitating, she looked as far as the autumnal haze on the marshy ground would allow her to see distinctly.  There was the fragment of a hedge—­all that remained of a ’wet old garden’—­standing in the middle of the mead, without a definite beginning or ending, purposeless and valueless.  It was overgrown, and choked with mandrakes, and she could almost fancy she heard their shrieks. . .  Should she withdraw her hand?  No, she could not withdraw it now; it was too late, the act would not imply refusal.  She felt as one in a boat without oars, drifting with closed eyes down a river—­she knew not whither.