Howells’s visit resulted in a new inspiration.
Clemens started to write him one night when he could
not sleep, and had been reading the volume of letters
of James Russell Lowell. Then, next morning, he
was seized with the notion of writing a series of
letters to such friends as Howells, Twichell, and
Rogers—letters not to be mailed, but to
be laid away for some future public. He wrote
two of these immediately—to Howells and
to Twichell. The Howells letter (or letters,
for it was really double) is both pathetic and amusing.
The first part ran:
3
in the morning, April 17, 1909.
My pen has gone dry and the ink is out of reach. Howells, did you write me day-before-day-before yesterday or did I dream it? In my mind’s eye I most vividly see your hand-write on a square blue envelope in the mail-pile. I have hunted the house over, but there is no such letter. Was it an illusion?
I am reading Lowell’s
letters & smoking. I woke an hour ago & am
reading to keep from wasting
the time. On page 305, Vol. I, I have
just margined a note:
“Young friend! I like that! You ought to see him now.”
It seemed startlingly strange to hear a person call you young. It was a brick out of a blue sky, & knocked me groggy for a moment. Ah me, the pathos of it is that we were young then. And he—why, so was he, but he didn’t know it. He didn’t even know it 9 years later, when we saw him approaching and you warned me, saying:
“Don’t say anything
about age—he has just turned 50 & thinks
he is
old, & broods over it.”
Well, Clara did sing! And you wrote her a dear letter.
Time to go to sleep.
Yours
ever,
mark
The second letter, begun at 10 A.M., outlines the plan by which he is to write on the subject uppermost in his mind without restraint, knowing that the letter is not to be mailed.