Memoirs of Casanova — Volume 15: with Voltaire eBook

Giacomo Casanova
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 103 pages of information about Memoirs of Casanova — Volume 15.

Memoirs of Casanova — Volume 15: with Voltaire eBook

Giacomo Casanova
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 103 pages of information about Memoirs of Casanova — Volume 15.

“He often asked me, but I would not grant his request because our confessor made me promise to withstand him thenceforth, if I wished to be absolved.”

“Did you tell him the name of the seducer?”

“Certainly not; the good confessor would not have allowed me to do so; it would have been a great sin.”

“Did you tell your confessor the state you were in?”

“No, but he must have guessed it.  He is a good old man, who doubtless prayed to God for me, and my meeting you was, perhaps, the answer to his prayers.”

I was deeply moved, and for a quarter of an hour I was silent, and absorbed in my thoughts.  I saw that this interesting girl’s misfortune proceeded from her ignorance, her candour, her perfect innocence, and a foolish feeling of pity, which made her grant this monster of lubricity a thing of which she thought little because she had never been in love.  She was religious, but from mere habit and not from reflection, and her religion was consequently very weak.  She abhorred sin, because she was obliged to purge herself of it by confession under pain of everlasting damnation, and she did not want to be damned.  She had plenty of natural common sense, little wit, for the cultivation of which she had no opportunities, and she was in a state of ignorance only pardonable in a nun.  On weighing these facts I foresaw that I should find it a difficult task to gain those favours which she had granted to Coudert; her repentance had been too bitter for her to expose herself to the same danger over again.

The peasant woman returned, laid the table for two, and brought us our supper.  Everything was new—­napkins, plates, glasses, spoons, knives, etc., and everything was exquisitely clean.  The wines were excellent, and the dishes delightful in their simplicity.  We had roast game, fish, cheese with cream, and very good fruit.  I spent an hour and a half at supper, and drank two bottles of wine as I talked to the nun, who ate very little.

I was in the highest spirits, and the woman, delighted with my praise of her provision, promised I should be served the same way every evening.

When I was alone with the nun, whose face filled me with such burning recollections, I began to speak of her health, and especially of the inconveniences attached to child-birth.  She said she felt quite well, and would be able to return to Chamberi on foot.  “The only thing that troubles me is my breasts, but the woman assures me that the milk will recede to-morrow, and that they will then assume their usual shape.”

“Allow me to examine them, I know something about it.”

“Look!”

She uncovered her bosom, not thinking it would give me any pleasure, but wishing to be polite, without supposing I had any concealed desires.  I passed my hands over two spheres whose perfect shape and whiteness would have restored Lazarus to life.  I took care not to offend her modesty, but in the coolest manner possible asked her how she felt a little lower down, and as I put the question I softly extended my hand.  However, she kept it back gently, telling me not to go any further as she still felt a little uneasy.  I begged her pardon, and said I hoped I should find everything quite right by the next day.

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