On the Wednesday I was punctual at the rendezvous, and I had not to wait long for M——­ M——­, who came disguised in male attire.  “No theatre to-night,” she said to me; “let us go to the ‘ridotto’, to lose or double our money.”  She had six hundred sequins.  I had about one hundred.  Fortune turned her back upon us, and we lost all.  I expected that we would then leave that cutthroat place, but M——­ M——­, having left me for a minute, came back with three hundred sequins which had been given to her by her friend, whom she knew where to find.  That money given by love or by friendship brought her luck for a short time, and she soon won back all we had lost, but in our greediness or imprudence we continued to play, and finally we lost our last sequin.

When we could play no longer, M——­ M——­ said to me,

“Now that we need not fear thieves, let us go to our supper.”

That woman, religious and a Free-thinker, a libertine and gambler, was wonderful in all she did.  She had just lost five hundred pounds, and she was as completely at her ease as if she had won a very large sum.  It is true that the money she had just lost had not cost her much.

As soon as we were alone, she found me sad and low-spirited, although I tried hard not to appear so, but, as for her, always the same, she was handsome, brilliant, cheerful, and amorous.

She thought she would bring back my spirits by giving me the fullest particulars of the night she had passed with C——­ C——­ and her friend, but she ought to have guessed that she was going the wrong way.  That is a very common error, it comes from the mind, because people imagine that what they feel themselves others must feel likewise.

I was on thorns, and I tried everything to avoid that subject, and to lead the conversation into a different channel, for the amorous particulars, on which she was dwelling with apparent delight, vexed me greatly, and spite causing coldness, I was afraid of not playing my part very warmly in the amorous contest which was at hand.  When a lover doubts his own strength, he may almost always be sure that he will fail in his efforts.

After supper we went to bed in the alcove, where the beauty, the mental and physical charms, the grace and the ardour of my lovely nun, cast all my bad temper to the winds, and soon restored me to my usual good-spirits.  The nights being shorter we spent two hours in the most delightful pleasures, and then parted, satisfied and full of love.

Before leaving, M——­ M——­ asked me to go to her casino, to take some money and to play, taking her for my partner.  I did so.  I took all the gold I found, and playing the martingale, and doubling my stakes continuously, I won every day during the remainder of the carnival.  I was fortunate enough never to lose the sixth card, and, if I had lost it, I should have been without money to play, for I had two thousand sequins on that card.  I congratulated myself upon having increased the treasure of my dear mistress, who wrote to me that, for the sake of civility, we ought to have a supper ‘en partie carree’ on Shrove Monday.  I consented.