I then begin a faithful recital of the fearful state in which her beauty has thrown me, and a vivid picture of all the suffering I have experienced in trying to master my ardent wish to give her some proof of my love; I explain to her that, unable to endure such torture any longer, I see no other safety but in entreating her not to see me any more.  The importance of the subject, the truth of my love, my wish to present my expedient in the light of the heroic effort of a deep and virtuous passion, lend me a peculiar eloquence.  I endeavour above all to make her realize the fearful consequences which might follow a course different to the one I was proposing, and how miserable we might be.

At the close of my long discourse Lucie, seeing my eyes wet with tears, throws off the bed-clothes to wipe them, without thinking that in so doing she uncovers two globes, the beauty of which might have caused the wreck of the most experienced pilot.  After a short silence, the charming child tells me that my tears make her very unhappy, and that she had never supposed that she could cause them.

“All you have just told me,” she added, “proves the sincerity of your great love for me, but I cannot imagine why you should be in such dread of a feeling which affords me the most intense pleasure.  You wish to banish me from your presence because you stand in fear of your love, but what would you do if you hated me?  Am I guilty because I have pleased you?  If it is a crime to have won your affection, I can assure you that I did not think I was committing a criminal action, and therefore you cannot conscientiously punish me.  Yet I cannot conceal the truth; I am very happy to be loved by you.  As for the danger we run, when we love, danger which I can understand, we can set it at defiance, if we choose, and I wonder at my not fearing it, ignorant as I am, while you, a learned man, think it so terrible.  I am astonished that love, which is not a disease, should have made you ill, and that it should have exactly the opposite effect upon me.  Is it possible that I am mistaken, and that my feeling towards you should not be love?  You saw me very cheerful when I came in this morning; it is because I have been dreaming all night, but my dreams did not keep me awake; only several times I woke up to ascertain whether my dream was true, for I thought I was near you; and every time, finding that it was not so, I quickly went to sleep again in the hope of continuing my happy dream, and every time I succeeded.  After such a night, was it not natural for me to be cheerful this morning?  My dear abbe, if love is a torment for you I am very sorry, but would it be possible for you to live without love?  I will do anything you order me to do, but, even if your cure depended upon it, I would not cease to love you, for that would be impossible.  Yet if to heal your sufferings it should be necessary for you to love me no more, you must do your utmost to succeed, for I would much rather see you alive without love, than dead for having loved too much.  Only try to find some other plan, for the one you have proposed makes me very miserable.  Think of it, there may be some other way which will be less painful.  Suggest one more practicable, and depend upon Lucie’s obedience.”