Wellwyn. [Nodding—then taking the young man’s hand.] How goes it?
Ferrand. [Displaying himself, simply.] As you see, Monsieur. I have done of my best. It still flies from me.
Wellwyn. [Sadly—as if against his will.] Ferrand, it will always fly.
[The young foreigner
shivers suddenly from head to foot; then
controls himself with
a great effort.]
Ferrand. Don’t say that, Monsieur! It is too much the echo of my heart.
Wellwyn. Forgive me! I didn’t mean to pain you.
Ferrand. [Drawing nearer the fire.] That old cabby, Monsieur, you remember—they tell me, he nearly succeeded to gain happiness the other day.
[Wellwyn nods.]
Ferrand. And those Sirs, so interested in him, with their theories? He has worn them out? [Wellwyn nods.] That goes without saying. And now they wish for him the lethal chamber.
Wellwyn. [Startled.] How did you know that?
[There is silence.]
Ferrand. [Staring into the fire.] Monsieur, while I was on the road this time I fell ill of a fever. It seemed to me in my illness that I saw the truth—how I was wasting in this world—I would never be good for any one—nor any one for me—all would go by, and I never of it—fame, and fortune, and peace, even the necessities of life, ever mocking me.
[He draws closer to
the fire, spreading his fingers to the
flame. And while
he is speaking, through the doorway Mrs.
Megan creeps in
to listen.]
Ferrand. [Speaking on into the fire.] And I saw, Monsieur, so plain, that I should be vagabond all my days, and my days short, I dying in the end the death of a dog. I saw it all in my fever— clear as that flame—there was nothing for us others, but the herb of death. [Wellwyn takes his arm and presses it.] And so, Monsieur, I wished to die. I told no one of my fever. I lay out on the ground—it was verree cold. But they would not let me die on the roads of their parishes—they took me to an Institution, Monsieur, I looked in their eyes while I lay there, and I saw more clear than the blue heaven that they thought it best that I should die, although they would not let me. Then Monsieur, naturally my spirit rose, and I said: “So much the worse for you. I will live a little more.” One is made like that! Life is sweet, Monsieur.
Wellwyn. Yes, Ferrand; Life is sweet.
Ferrand. That little girl you had here, Monsieur [Wellwyn nods.] in her too there is something of wild-savage. She must have joy of life. I have seen her since I came back. She has embraced the life of joy. It is not quite the same thing. [He lowers his voice.] She is lost, Monsieur, as a stone that sinks in water. I can see, if she cannot. [As Wellwyn makes a movement of distress.] Oh! I am not to blame for that, Monsieur. It had well begun before I knew her.