The proprietor served him obsequiously but did not venture to talk.  There were five or six workingmen in the shop discussing the value of a gentleman’s estate in County Kildare They drank at intervals from their huge pint tumblers and smoked, spitting often on the floor and sometimes dragging the sawdust over their spits with their heavy boots.  Mr. Duffy sat on his stool and gazed at them, without seeing or hearing them.  After a while they went out and he called for another punch.  He sat a long time over it.  The shop was very quiet.  The proprietor sprawled on the counter reading the Herald and yawning.  Now and again a tram was heard swishing along the lonely road outside.

As he sat there, living over his life with her and evoking alternately the two images in which he now conceived her, he realised that she was dead, that she had ceased to exist, that she had become a memory.  He began to feel ill at ease.  He asked himself what else could he have done.  He could not have carried on a comedy of deception with her; he could not have lived with her openly.  He had done what seemed to him best.  How was he to blame?  Now that she was gone he understood how lonely her life must have been, sitting night after night alone in that room.  His life would be lonely too until he, too, died, ceased to exist, became a memory—­if anyone remembered him.

It was after nine o’clock when he left the shop.  The night was cold and gloomy.  He entered the Park by the first gate and walked along under the gaunt trees.  He walked through the bleak alleys where they had walked four years before.  She seemed to be near him in the darkness.  At moments he seemed to feel her voice touch his ear, her hand touch his.  He stood still to listen.  Why had he withheld life from her?  Why had he sentenced her to death?  He felt his moral nature falling to pieces.

When he gained the crest of the Magazine Hill he halted and looked along the river towards Dublin, the lights of which burned redly and hospitably in the cold night.  He looked down the slope and, at the base, in the shadow of the wall of the Park, he saw some human figures lying.  Those venal and furtive loves filled him with despair.  He gnawed the rectitude of his life; he felt that he had been outcast from life’s feast.  One human being had seemed to love him and he had denied her life and happiness:  he had sentenced her to ignominy, a death of shame.  He knew that the prostrate creatures down by the wall were watching him and wished him gone.  No one wanted him; he was outcast from life’s feast.  He turned his eyes to the grey gleaming river, winding along towards Dublin.  Beyond the river he saw a goods train winding out of Kingsbridge Station, like a worm with a fiery head winding through the darkness, obstinately and laboriously.  It passed slowly out of sight; but still he heard in his ears the laborious drone of the engine reiterating the syllables of her name.