Dubliners eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 256 pages of information about Dubliners.

Dubliners eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 256 pages of information about Dubliners.

He went often to her little cottage outside Dublin; often they spent their evenings alone.  Little by little, as their thoughts entangled, they spoke of subjects less remote.  Her companionship was like a warm soil about an exotic.  Many times she allowed the dark to fall upon them, refraining from lighting the lamp.  The dark discreet room, their isolation, the music that still vibrated in their ears united them.  This union exalted him, wore away the rough edges of his character, emotionalised his mental life.  Sometimes he caught himself listening to the sound of his own voice.  He thought that in her eyes he would ascend to an angelical stature; and, as he attached the fervent nature of his companion more and more closely to him, he heard the strange impersonal voice which he recognised as his own, insisting on the soul’s incurable loneliness.  We cannot give ourselves, it said:  we are our own.  The end of these discourses was that one night during which she had shown every sign of unusual excitement, Mrs. Sinico caught up his hand passionately and pressed it to her cheek.

Mr. Duffy was very much surprised.  Her interpretation of his words disillusioned him.  He did not visit her for a week, then he wrote to her asking her to meet him.  As he did not wish their last interview to be troubled by the influence of their ruined confessional they meet in a little cakeshop near the Parkgate.  It was cold autumn weather but in spite of the cold they wandered up and down the roads of the Park for nearly three hours.  They agreed to break off their intercourse:  every bond, he said, is a bond to sorrow.  When they came out of the Park they walked in silence towards the tram; but here she began to tremble so violently that, fearing another collapse on her part, he bade her good-bye quickly and left her.  A few days later he received a parcel containing his books and music.

Four years passed.  Mr. Duffy returned to his even way of life.  His room still bore witness of the orderliness of his mind.  Some new pieces of music encumbered the music-stand in the lower room and on his shelves stood two volumes by Nietzsche:  Thus Spake Zarathustra and The Gay Science.  He wrote seldom in the sheaf of papers which lay in his desk.  One of his sentences, written two months after his last interview with Mrs. Sinico, read:  Love between man and man is impossible because there must not be sexual intercourse and friendship between man and woman is impossible because there must be sexual intercourse.  He kept away from concerts lest he should meet her.  His father died; the junior partner of the bank retired.  And still every morning he went into the city by tram and every evening walked home from the city after having dined moderately in George’s Street and read the evening paper for dessert.

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