I wished to go in and look at him but I had not the courage to knock.  I walked away slowly along the sunny side of the street, reading all the theatrical advertisements in the shop-windows as I went.  I found it strange that neither I nor the day seemed in a mourning mood and I felt even annoyed at discovering in myself a sensation of freedom as if I had been freed from something by his death.  I wondered at this for, as my uncle had said the night before, he had taught me a great deal.  He had studied in the Irish college in Rome and he had taught me to pronounce Latin properly.  He had told me stories about the catacombs and about Napoleon Bonaparte, and he had explained to me the meaning of the different ceremonies of the Mass and of the different vestments worn by the priest.  Sometimes he had amused himself by putting difficult questions to me, asking me what one should do in certain circumstances or whether such and such sins were mortal or venial or only imperfections.  His questions showed me how complex and mysterious were certain institutions of the Church which I had always regarded as the simplest acts.  The duties of the priest towards the Eucharist and towards the secrecy of the confessional seemed so grave to me that I wondered how anybody had ever found in himself the courage to undertake them; and I was not surprised when he told me that the fathers of the Church had written books as thick as the Post Office Directory and as closely printed as the law notices in the newspaper, elucidating all these intricate questions.  Often when I thought of this I could make no answer or only a very foolish and halting one upon which he used to smile and nod his head twice or thrice.  Sometimes he used to put me through the responses of the Mass which he had made me learn by heart; and, as I pattered, he used to smile pensively and nod his head, now and then pushing huge pinches of snuff up each nostril alternately.  When he smiled he used to uncover his big discoloured teeth and let his tongue lie upon his lower lip—­a habit which had made me feel uneasy in the beginning of our acquaintance before I knew him well.

As I walked along in the sun I remembered old Cotter’s words and tried to remember what had happened afterwards in the dream.  I remembered that I had noticed long velvet curtains and a swinging lamp of antique fashion.  I felt that I had been very far away, in some land where the customs were strange—­in Persia, I thought....  But I could not remember the end of the dream.

In the evening my aunt took me with her to visit the house of mourning.  It was after sunset; but the window-panes of the houses that looked to the west reflected the tawny gold of a great bank of clouds.  Nannie received us in the hall; and, as it would have been unseemly to have shouted at her, my aunt shook hands with her for all.  The old woman pointed upwards interrogatively and, on my aunt’s nodding, proceeded to toil up the narrow staircase before us, her bowed head being scarcely above the level of the banister-rail.  At the first landing she stopped and beckoned us forward encouragingly towards the open door of the dead-room.  My aunt went in and the old woman, seeing that I hesitated to enter, began to beckon to me again repeatedly with her hand.