growth—an artist expressing himself in
millions of ever-changing forms; decay and death as
we call them, being but rest and sleep, the ebbing
of the tide, which must ever come between two rising
tides, or the night which comes between two days.
But the next day is never the same as the day before,
nor the tide as the last tide; so the little shapes
of the world and of ourselves, these works of art
by the Eternal Artist, are never renewed in the same
form, are never twice alike, but always fresh-fresh
worlds, fresh individuals, fresh flowers, fresh everything.
I do not see anything depressing in that. To
me it would be depressing to think that I would go
on living after death, or live again in a new body,
myself yet not myself. How stale that would
be! When I finish a picture it is inconceivable
to me that this picture should ever become another
picture, or that one can divide the expression from
the mind-stuff it has expressed. The Great Artist
who is the whole of Everything, is ever in fresh effort
to achieve new things. He is as a fountain who
throws up new drops, no two ever alike, which fall
back into the water, flow into the pipe, and so are
thrown up again in fresh-shaped drops. But I
cannot explain why there should be this Eternal Energy,
ever expressing itself in fresh individual shapes,
this Eternal Working Artist, instead of nothing at
all—just empty dark for always; except indeed
that it must be one thing or the other, either all
or nothing; and it happens to be this and not that,
the all and not the nothing.”
He stopped speaking, and his big eyes, which had fixed
themselves on Fort’s face, seemed to the latter
not to be seeing him at all, but to rest on something
beyond. The man in khaki, who had risen and was
standing with his hand on his wife’s shoulder,
said:
“Bravo, monsieur; Jolly well put from the artist’s
point of view. The idea is pretty, anyway; but
is there any need for an idea at all? Things
are; and we have just to take them.” Fort
had the impression of something dark and writhing;
the thin black form of his host, who had risen and
come close to the fire.
“I cannot admit,” he was saying, “the
identity of the Creator with the created. God
exists outside ourselves. Nor can I admit that
there is no defnite purpose and fulfilment.
All is shaped to His great ends. I think we
are too given to spiritual pride. The world has
lost reverence; I regret it, I bitterly regret it.”
“I rejoice at it,” said the man in khaki.
“Now, Captain Fort, your turn to bat!”
Fort, who had been looking at Noel, gave himself a
shake, and said: “I think what monsieur
calls expression, I call fighting. I suspect
the Universe of being simply a long fight, a sum of
conquests and defeats. Conquests leading to defeats,
defeats to conquests. I want to win while I’m
alive, and because I want to win, I want to live on
after death. Death is a defeat. I don’t