hand and deprecating eye sometimes superadded.
She usually stood in my doorway, silent and patient,
intimating her presence, if my attention were preoccupied,
by a slight cough from her baby, whom I shall always
believe had its part to play in this little pantomime,
and generally obeyed a secret signal from the maternal
hand. It was useless for me to refuse alms, to
plead business, or affect inattention. She never
moved; her position was always taken with an appearance
of latent capabilities of endurance and experience
in waiting which never failed to impress me with awe
and the futility of any hope of escape. There
was also something in the reproachful expression of
her eye which plainly said to me, as I bent over my
paper, “Go on with your mock sentimentalities
and simulated pathos; portray the imaginary sufferings
of your bodiless creations, spread your thin web of
philosophy, but look you, sir, here is real misery!
Here is genuine suffering!” I confess that this
artful suggestion usually brought me down. In
three minutes after she had thus invested the citadel
I usually surrendered at discretion, without a gun
having been fired on either side. She received
my offering and retired as mutely and mysteriously
as she had appeared. Perhaps it was well for
me that she did not know her strength. I might
have been forced, had this terrible woman been conscious
of her real power, to have borrowed money which I
could not pay, or have forged a check to purchase
immunity from her awful presence. I hardly know
if I make myself understood, and yet I am unable to
define my meaning more clearly when I say that there
was something in her glance which suggested to the
person appealed to, when in the presence of others,
a certain idea of some individual responsibility for
her sufferings, which, while it never failed to affect
him with a mingled sense of ludicrousness and terror,
always made an impression of unqualified gravity on
the minds of the bystanders. As she has disappeared
within the last month, I imagine that she has found
a home at the San Francisco Benevolent Association,—at
least, I cannot conceive of any charity, however guarded
by wholesome checks or sharp-eyed almoners, that could
resist that mute apparition. I should like to
go there and inquire about her, and also learn if
the baby was convalescent or dead, but I am satisfied
that she would rise up, a mute and reproachful appeal,
so personal in its artful suggestions, that it would
end in the Association instantly transferring her
to my hands.
My next familiar mendicant was a vender of printed ballads. These effusions were so stale, atrocious, and unsalable in their character, that it was easy to detect that hypocrisy, which—in imitation of more ambitious beggary—veiled the real eleemosynary appeal under the thin pretext of offering an equivalent. This beggar—an aged female in a rusty bonnet—I unconsciously precipitated upon myself in an evil moment. On our first meeting, while distractedly turning over