mile-long sweep of Heavy Tree Hill, writhing against
the mountain wind and its aeolian song. He had
never felt so lonely
there. In his rigid
self-examination he thought Kitty right in protesting
against the effect of his youthfulness and optimism.
Yet he was also right in being himself. There
is an egoism in the highest simplicity; and Barker,
while willing to believe in others’ methods,
never abandoned his own aims. He was right in
loving Kitty as he did; he knew that she was better
and more lovable than she could believe herself to
be; but he was willing to believe it pained and discomposed
her if he showed it before company. He would
not have her change even this peculiarity—it
was part of herself—no more than he would
have changed himself. And behind what he had
conceived was her clear, practical common sense, all
this time had been her belief that she had deceived
her father! Poor dear, dear Kitty! And she
had suffered because stupid people had conceived that
her father had led him away in selfish speculations.
As if he—Barker—would not have
first discovered it, and as if anybody—even
dear Kitty herself—was responsible for
his convictions and actions but himself.
Nevertheless, this gentle egotist was unusually serious,
and when the child awoke at last, and with a fretful
start and vacant eyes pushed his caressing hand away,
he felt lonelier than before. It was with a slight
sense of humiliation, too, that he saw it stretch its
hands to the mere hireling, Norah, who had never given
it the love that he had seen even in the frivolous
Mrs. Horncastle’s eyes. Later, when his
wife came in, looking very pretty in her elaborate
dinner toilette, he had the same conflicting emotions.
He knew that they had already passed that phase of
their married life when she no longer dressed to please
him, and that the dictates of fashion or the rivalry
of another woman she held superior to his tastes;
yet he did not blame her. But he was a little
surprised to see that her dress was copied from one
of Mrs. Horncastle’s most striking ones, and
that it did not suit her. That which adorned
the maturer woman did not agree with the demure and
slightly austere prettiness of the young wife.
But Barker forgot all this when Stacy—reserved
and somewhat severe-looking in evening dress—arrived
with business punctuality. He fancied that his
old partner received the announcement that they would
dine in the public room with something of surprise,
and he saw him glance keenly at Kitty in her fine
array, as if he had suspected it was her choice, and
understood her motives. Indeed, the young husband
had found himself somewhat nervous in regard to Stacy’s
estimate of Kitty; he was conscious that she was not
looking and acting like the old Kitty that Stacy had
known; it did not enter his honest heart that Stacy
had, perhaps, not appreciated her then, and that her
present quality might accord more with his worldly
tastes and experience. It was, therefore, with