Paul.
O cruel! I can
strangle pain no more!
Is this the fruit of
all thy heavenly lore?
They say thy Christ
His enemies did bless,
Thou addest insult to
my deep distress.
How is my soul so dark—which
was so fair?—
Thou call’dst
me ’lovely’—’dear’—’beyond
compare!’—
Of my bereavement have
I said no word,
I stilled my grief that
I might soothe my lord!
They say that love has
wings, and all they say is true,
For all thy love has
flown; yet can I ne’er undo
The vows I made, the
troth I plighted binds me still!
Thou fain wouldst quit
thy wife, and thou shalt have thy will.
Oh, but to leave my
side with rapture, ecstasy,
No jealous Christ can
will: why grudge me one poor sigh?
This joy, this transport
fierce, endeavour to conceal.
I do not share thy creed,
but I, at least, can feel!
Why gloat o’er
heavenly gain, crowns, palms, I know not what—
Where Polyeucte is blest,
but where Pauline is not?
Soul, body, spirit,
I am thy true wife, to own
That I am but a bar
to happiness unknown!
Poly.
Alas!
Paul.
O! that ’Alas!’—so
faint, so tame!
Yet, if repentant from
thy heart it came,
’Twould waken
hope, still brief, and banish fears:
I wait the birth of
thy reluctant tears.
Poly.
These tears I shed!
O, might the Spirit pour
Through them the light,
the light that I adore—
Then were my only grief
all swept away,
For thou wouldst join
me in the realms of day!
Else Heaven itself would
have its bitterness,
Should I look down to
witness thy distress!
O God, who lov’st
the dust on which Thy breath
Hath stamped Thine image
true—save her from death!
The only death that
kills, and let my love
From Heaven woo her
to the realms above!
Lord, hear my call!
My inmost heart now see,
Who lives a Christian
life must Christian be!
Her nature god-like,
stamped from print divine;
She must be sealed Thine
own, yes, only Thine!
Say, must she burn,
condemned to depths of hell?—
Thy Will be done—Who
doest all things well!
Paul.
O wretch, what words
are these? Thou dost desire——
Poly.
To snatch thee from
a never-ending fire.
Paul.
Or else?
Poly.
O God, I trust to Thy
control,
Who when we think not,
canst illume the soul!
The when—the
how—is His—here am I dumb,—
I wait—I
wait—That blessed hour will come!
Paul.
Oh, leave illusions!
Love me!
Poly.
Thee I love
Far more than self,
but less than God above!