It was in consequence of these backslidings, which had become alarmingly frequent, that early in 1860 my Father determined on proclaiming a solemn fast.  He delivered one Sunday what seemed to me an awe-inspiring address, calling upon us all closely to examine our consciences, and reminding us of the appalling fate of the church of Laodicea.  He said that it was not enough to have made a satisfactory confession of faith, nor even to have sealed that confession in baptism, if we did not live up to our protestations.  Salvation, he told us, must indeed precede holiness of life, yet both are essential.  It was a dark and rainy winter morning when he made this terrible address, which frightened the congregation extremely.  When the marrow was congealed within our bones, and when the bowed heads before him, and the faintly audible sobs of the women in the background, told him that his lesson had gone home, he pronounced the keeping of a day in the following week as a fast of contrition.  ’Those of you who have to pursue your daily occupations will pursue them, but sustained only by the bread of affliction and by the water of affliction.’

His influence over these gentle peasant people was certainly remarkable, for no effort was made to resist his exhortation.  It was his customary plan to stay a little while, after the morning meeting was over, and in a very affable fashion to shake hands with the Saints.  But on this occasion he stalked forth without a word, holding my hand tight until we had swept out into the street.

How the rest of the congregation kept this fast I do not know.  But it was a dreadful day for us.  I was awakened in the pitchy night to go off with my Father to the Room, where a scanty gathering held a penitential prayer-meeting.  We came home, as dawn was breaking, and in process of time sat down to breakfast, which consisted—­at that dismal hour—­of slices of dry bread and a tumbler of cold water each.  During the morning, I was not allowed to paint, or write, or withdraw to my study in the box-room.  We sat, in a state of depression not to be described, in the breakfast-room, reading books of a devotional character, with occasional wailing of some very doleful hymn.  Our midday dinner came at last; the meal was strictly confined, as before, to dry slices of the loaf and a tumbler of water.

The afternoon would have been spent as the morning was, and so my Father spent it.  But Miss Marks, seeing my white cheeks and the dark rings around my eyes, besought leave to take me out for a walk.  This was permitted, with a pledge that I should be given no species of refreshment.  Although I told Miss Marks, in the course of the walk, that I was feeling ‘so leer’ (our Devonshire phrase for hungry), she dared not break her word.  Our last meal was of the former character, and the day ended by our trapesing through the wet to another prayer-meeting, whence I returned in a state bordering on collapse and was put to bed without further nourishment.  There was no great hardship in all this, I daresay, but it was certainly rigorous.  My Father took pains to see that what he had said about the bread and water of affliction was carried out in the bosom of his own family, and by no one more unflinchingly than by himself.