One side of it was occupied by an open piano, surmounted
by a jar full of white roses. They perfumed the
air; they seemed to me to exhale the pure aroma of
Pickering’s devotion. Buried in an arm-chair,
the object of this devotion was reading the Revue
des Deux Mondes. The purpose of my visit
was not to admire Madame Blumenthal on my own account,
but to ascertain how far I might safely leave her
to work her will upon my friend. She had impugned
my sincerity the evening of the opera, and I was careful
on this occasion to abstain from compliments, and
not to place her on her guard against my penetration.
It is needless to narrate our interview in detail;
indeed, to tell the perfect truth, I was punished
for my rash attempt to surprise her by a temporary
eclipse of my own perspicacity. She sat there
so questioning, so perceptive, so genial, so generous,
and so pretty withal, that I was quite ready at the
end of half an hour to subscribe to the most comprehensive
of Pickering’s rhapsodies. She was certainly
a wonderful woman. I have never liked to linger,
in memory, on that half-hour. The result of
it was to prove that there were many more things in
the composition of a woman who, as Niedermeyer said,
had lodged her imagination in the place of her heart
than were dreamt of in my philosophy. Yet, as
I sat there stroking my hat and balancing the account
between nature and art in my affable hostess, I felt
like a very competent philosopher. She had said
she wished me to tell her everything about our friend,
and she questioned me as to his family, his fortune,
his antecedents, and his character. All this
was natural in a woman who had received a passionate
declaration of love, and it was expressed with an
air of charmed solicitude, a radiant confidence that
there was really no mistake about his being a most
distinguished young man, and that if I chose to be
explicit, I might deepen her conviction to disinterested
ecstasy, which might have almost provoked me to invent
a good opinion, if I had not had one ready made.
I told her that she really knew Pickering better
than I did, and that until we met at Homburg I had
not seen him since he was a boy.
“But he talks to you freely,” she answered; “I know you are his confidant. He has told me certainly a great many things, but I always feel as if he were keeping something back; as if he were holding something behind him, and showing me only one hand at once. He seems often to be hovering on the edge of a secret. I have had several friendships in my life—thank Heaven! but I have had none more dear to me than this one. Yet in the midst of it I have the painful sense of my friend being half afraid of me; of his thinking me terrible, strange, perhaps a trifle out of my wits. Poor me! If he only knew what a plain good soul I am, and how I only want to know him and befriend him!”