we English visitors to Paris had seen little or nothing of that,—­and I had sometimes thought, indeed, how even death seemed loth to choose his victims out of that brilliant throng whom I had known.  Madame de Crequy’s one boy lived; while three out of my six were gone since we had met!  I do not think all lots are equal, even now that I know the end of her hopes; but I do say that whatever our individual lot is, it is our duty to accept it, without comparing it with that of others.

“The times were thick with gloom and terror.  ‘What next?’ was the question we asked of every one who brought us news from Paris.  Where were these demons hidden when, so few years ago, we danced and feasted, and enjoyed the brilliant salons and the charming friendships of Paris?

“One evening, I was sitting alone in Saint James’s Square; my lord off at the club with Mr. Fox and others:  he had left me, thinking that I should go to one of the many places to which I had been invited for that evening; but I had no heart to go anywhere, for it was poor Urian’s birthday, and I had not even rung for lights, though the day was fast closing in, but was thinking over all his pretty ways, and on his warm affectionate nature, and how often I had been too hasty in speaking to him, for all I loved him so dearly; and how I seemed to have neglected and dropped his dear friend Clement, who might even now be in need of help in that cruel, bloody Paris.  I say I was thinking reproachfully of all this, and particularly of Clement de Crequy in connection with Urian, when Fenwick brought me a note, sealed with a coat-of-arms I knew well, though I could not remember at the moment where I had seen it.  I puzzled over it, as one does sometimes, for a minute or more, before I opened the letter.  In a moment I saw it was from Clement de Crequy.  ’My mother is here,’ he said:  ’she is very ill, and I am bewildered in this strange country.  May I entreat you to receive me for a few minutes?’ The bearer of the note was the woman of the house where they lodged.  I had her brought up into the anteroom, and questioned her myself, while my carriage was being brought round.  They had arrived in London a fortnight or so before:  she had not known their quality, judging them (according to her kind) by their dress and their luggage; poor enough, no doubt.  The lady had never left her bedroom since her arrival; the young man waited upon her, did everything for her, never left her, in fact; only she (the messenger) had promised to stay within call, as soon as she returned, while he went out somewhere.  She could hardly understand him, he spoke English so badly.  He had never spoken it, I dare say, since he had talked to my Urian.”

CHAPTER V.