out of her mind; to go on from day to day thinking
only of the day, and how to arrange it so as to cause
the least irritation to her father. She would
so gladly have spoken to him on the one subject which
overshadowed all their intercourse; she fancied that
by speaking she might have been able to banish the
phantom, or reduce its terror to what she believed
to be the due proportion. But her father was
evidently determined to show that he was never more
to be spoken to on that subject; and all she could
do was to follow his lead on the rare occasions that
they fell into something like the old confidential
intercourse. As yet, to her, he had never given
way to anger; but before her he had often spoken in
a manner which both pained and terrified her.
Sometimes his eye in the midst of his passion caught
on her face of affright and dismay, and then he would
stop, and make such an effort to control himself as
sometimes ended in tears. Ellinor did not understand
that both these phases were owing to his increasing
habit of drinking more than he ought to have done.
She set them down as the direct effects of a sorely
burdened conscience; and strove more and more to plan
for his daily life at home, how it should go on with
oiled wheels, neither a jerk nor a jar. It was
no wonder she looked wistful, and careworn, and old.
Miss Monro was her great comfort; the total unconsciousness
on that lady’s part of anything below the surface,
and yet her full and delicate recognition of all the
little daily cares and trials, made her sympathy most
valuable to Ellinor, while there was no need to fear
that it would ever give Miss Monro that power of seeing
into the heart of things which it frequently confers
upon imaginative people, who are deeply attached to
some one in sorrow.
There was a strong bond between Ellinor and Dixon,
although they scarcely ever exchanged a word save
on the most common-place subjects; but their silence
was based on different feelings from that which separated
Ellinor from her father. Ellinor and Dixon could
not speak freely, because their hearts were full of
pity for the faulty man whom they both loved so well,
and tried so hard to respect.
This was the state of the household to which Ralph
Corbet came down at Easter. He might have been
known in London as a brilliant diner-out by this time;
but he could not afford to throw his life away in fireworks;
he calculated his forces, and condensed their power
as much as might be, only visiting where he was likely
to meet men who could help in his future career.
He had been invited to spend the Easter vacation at
a certain country house which would be full of such
human stepping-stones; and he declined in order to
keep his word to Ellinor, and go to Ford Bank.
But he could not help looking upon himself a little
in the light of a martyr to duty; and perhaps this
view of his own merits made him chafe under his future
father-in-law’s irritability of manner, which