the field, not attached to any regiment, but under
Webb’s orders. What must have been the
continued agonies of fears* and apprehensions which
racked the gentle breasts of wives and matrons in
those dreadful days, when every Gazette brought accounts
of deaths and battles, and when the present anxiety
over, and the beloved person escaped, the doubt still
remained that a battle might be fought, possibly, of
which the next Flanders letter would bring the account;
so they, the poor tender creatures, had to go on sickening
and trembling through the whole campaign. Whatever
these terrors were on the part of Esmond’s mistress,
(and that tenderest of women must have felt them most
keenly for both her sons, as she called them), she
never allowed them outwardly to appear, but hid her
apprehension, as she did her charities and devotion.
’Twas only by chance that Esmond, wandering in
Kensington, found his mistress coming out of a mean
cottage there, and heard that she had a score of poor
retainers, whom she visited and comforted in their
sickness and poverty, and who blessed her daily.
She attended the early church daily (though of a Sunday,
especially, she encouraged and advanced all sorts
of cheerfulness and innocent gayety in her little
household): and by notes entered into a table-book
of hers at this time, and devotional compositions
writ with a sweet artless fervor, such as the best
divines could not surpass, showed how fond her heart
was, how humble and pious her spirit, what pangs of
apprehension she endured silently, and with what a
faithful reliance she committed the care of those
she loved to the awful Dispenser of death and life.
* What indeed?
Psm. xci. 2, 3, 7.—R. E.
As for her ladyship at Chelsey, Esmond’s newly
adopted mother, she was now of an age when the danger
of any second party doth not disturb the rest much.
She cared for trumps more than for most things in life.
She was firm enough in her own faith, but no longer
very bitter against ours. She had a very good-natured,
easy French director, Monsieur Gauthier by name, who
was a gentleman of the world, and would take a hand
of cards with Dean Atterbury, my lady’s neighbor
at Chelsey, and was well with all the High Church
party. No doubt Monsieur Gauthier knew what Esmond’s
peculiar position was, for he corresponded with Holt,
and always treated Colonel Esmond with particular
respect and kindness; but for good reasons the Colonel
and the Abbe never spoke on this matter together,
and so they remained perfect good friends.
All the frequenters of my Lady of Chelsey’s
house were of the Tory and High Church party.
Madame Beatrix was as frantic about the King as her
elderly kinswoman: she wore his picture on her
heart; she had a piece of his hair; she vowed he was
the most injured, and gallant, and accomplished, and
unfortunate, and beautiful of princes. Steele,
who quarrelled with very many of his Tory friends,
but never with Esmond, used to tell the Colonel that