I read it in your face and eyes.  I saw that they boded harm to us—­and it came, I knew it would.  Why did you not die when you had the small-pox—­and I came myself and watched you, and you didn’t know me in your delirium—­and you called out for me, though I was there at your side?  All that has happened since, was a just judgment on my wicked heart—­my wicked jealous heart.  Oh, I am punished—­awfully punished!  My husband lies in his blood—­murdered for defending me, my kind, kind, generous lord—­and you were by, and you let him die, Henry!”

These words, uttered in the wildness of her grief, by one who was ordinarily quiet, and spoke seldom except with a gentle smile and a soothing tone, rung in Esmond’s ear; and ’tis said that he repeated many of them in the fever into which he now fell from his wound, and perhaps from the emotion which such passionate, undeserved upbraidings caused him.  It seemed as if his very sacrifices and love for this lady and her family were to turn to evil and reproach:  as if his presence amongst them was indeed a cause of grief, and the continuance of his life but woe and bitterness to theirs.  As the Lady Castlewood spoke bitterly, rapidly, without a tear, he never offered a word of appeal or remonstrance:  but sat at the foot of his prison-bed, stricken only with the more pain at thinking it was that soft and beloved hand which should stab him so cruelly, and powerless against her fatal sorrow.  Her words as she spoke struck the chords of all his memory, and the whole of his boyhood and youth passed within him; whilst this lady, so fond and gentle but yesterday—­this good angel whom he had loved and worshipped—­stood before him, pursuing him with keen words and aspect malign.

“I wish I were in my lord’s place,” he groaned out.  “It was not my fault that I was not there, madam.  But Fate is stronger than all of us, and willed what has come to pass.  It had been better for me to have died when I had the illness.”

“Yes, Henry,” said she—­and as she spoke she looked at him with a glance that was at once so fond and so sad, that the young man, tossing up his arms, wildly fell back, hiding his head in the coverlet of the bed.  As he turned he struck against the wall with his wounded hand, displacing the ligature; and he felt the blood rushing again from the wound.  He remembered feeling a secret pleasure at the accident—­and thinking, “Suppose I were to end now, who would grieve for me?”

This hemorrhage, or the grief and despair in which the luckless young man was at the time of the accident, must have brought on a deliquium presently; for he had scarce any recollection afterwards, save of some one, his mistress probably, seizing his hand—­and then of the buzzing noise in his ears as he awoke, with two or three persons of the prison around his bed, whereon he lay in a pool of blood from his arm.

It was now bandaged up again by the prison surgeon, who happened to be in the place; and the governor’s wife and servant, kind people both, were with the patient.  Esmond saw his mistress still in the room when he awoke from his trance; but she went away without a word; though the governor’s wife told him that she sat in her room for some time afterward, and did not leave the prison until she heard that Esmond was likely to do well.