the utterly hopeless. I suppose you understand
what I mean? I mean the people who have nowhere
to go and nothing to look forward to in this life.
Do you understand how frightful that is—nothing
to look forward to! Sometimes I think that it
is only in Russia that there are such people and such
a depth of misery can be reached. Well, I plunged
into it, and—do you know—there
isn’t much that one can do in there. No,
indeed—at least as long as there are Ministries
of Finances and such like grotesque horrors to stand
in the way. I suppose I would have gone mad there
just trying to fight the vermin, if it had not been
for a man. It was my old friend and teacher,
the poor saintly apple-woman, who discovered him for
me, quite accidentally. She came to fetch me
late one evening in her quiet way. I followed
her where she would lead; that part of my life was
in her hands altogether, and without her my spirit
would have perished miserably. The man was a
young workman, a lithographer by trade, and he had
got into trouble in connexion with that affair of
temperance tracts—you remember. There
was a lot of people put in prison for that. The
Ministry of Finances again! What would become
of it if the poor folk ceased making beasts of themselves
with drink? Upon my word, I would think that
finances and all the rest of it are an invention of
the devil; only that a belief in a supernatural source
of evil is not necessary; men alone are quite capable
of every wickedness. Finances indeed!”
Hatred and contempt hissed in her utterance of the
word “finances,” but at the very moment
she gently stroked the cat reposing in her arms.
She even raised them slightly, and inclining her head
rubbed her cheek against the fur of the animal, which
received this caress with the complete detachment
so characteristic of its kind. Then looking at
Miss Haldin she excused herself once more for not
taking her upstairs to Madame S— The interview
could not be interrupted. Presently the journalist
would be seen coming down the stairs. The best
thing was to remain in the hall; and besides, all
these rooms (she glanced all round at the many doors),
all these rooms on the ground floor were unfurnished.
“Positively there is no chair down here to offer
you,” she continued. “But if you
prefer your own thoughts to my chatter, I will sit
down on the bottom step here and keep silent.”
Miss Haldin hastened to assure her that, on the contrary,
she was very much interested in the story of the journeyman
lithographer. He was a revolutionist, of course.
“A martyr, a simple man,” said the dame
de compangnie, with a faint sigh, and gazing through
the open front door dreamily. She turned her
misty brown eyes on Miss Haldin.
“I lived with him for four months. It was
like a nightmare.”