“I?  Nothing.”

“How, nothing?  They tell me you want to get married.  You shall get married when the time comes.  I’ll find you a decent wife, not some town hussy.”

His father talked and talked, while Alyosha stood still and sighed.  When his father had quite finished, Alyosha smiled.

“All right.  I’ll drop it.”

“Now that’s what I call sense.”

When he was left alone with Ustinia he told her what his father had said. (She had listened at the door.)

“It’s no good; it can’t come off.  Did you hear?  He was angry—­won’t have it at any price.”

Ustinia cried into her apron.

Alyosha shook his head.

“What’s to be done?  We must do as we’re told.”

“Well, are you going to give up that nonsense, as your father told you?” his mistress asked, as he was putting up the shutters in the evening.

“To be sure we are,” Alyosha replied with a smile, and then burst into tears.

From that day Alyosha went about his work as usual, and no longer talked to Ustinia about their getting married.  One day in Lent the clerk told him to clear the snow from the roof.  Alyosha climbed on to the roof and swept away all the snow; and, while he was still raking out some frozen lumps from the gutter, his foot slipped and he fell over.  Unfortunately he did not fall on the snow, but on a piece of iron over the door.  Ustinia came running up, together with the merchant’s daughter.

“Have you hurt yourself, Alyosha?”

“Ah! no, it’s nothing.”

But he could not raise himself when he tried to, and began to smile.

He was taken into the lodge.  The doctor arrived, examined him, and asked where he felt the pain.

“I feel it all over,” he said.  “But it doesn’t matter.  I’m only afraid master will be annoyed.  Father ought to be told.”

Alyosha lay in bed for two days, and on the third day they sent for the priest.

“Are you really going to die?” Ustinia asked.

“Of course I am.  You can’t go on living for ever.  You must go when the time comes.”  Alyosha spoke rapidly as usual.  “Thank you, Ustinia.  You’ve been very good to me.  What a lucky thing they didn’t let us marry!  Where should we have been now?  It’s much better as it is.”

When the priest came, he prayed with his bands and with his heart.  “As it is good here when you obey and do no harm to others, so it will be there,” was the thought within it.

He spoke very little; he only said he was thirsty, and he seemed full of wonder at something.

He lay in wonderment, then stretched himself, and died.

MY DREAM

“As a daughter she no longer exists for me.  Can’t you understand?  She simply doesn’t exist.  Still, I cannot possibly leave her to the charity of strangers.  I will arrange things so that she can live as she pleases, but I do not wish to hear of her.  Who would ever have thought . . . the horror of it, the horror of it.”