He was bored now when Emma suddenly began to sob on his breast, and his heart, like the people who can only stand a certain amount of music, dozed to the sound of a love whose delicacies he no longer noted.

They knew one another too well for any of those surprises of possession that increase its joys a hundred-fold.  She was as sick of him as he was weary of her.  Emma found again in adultery all the platitudes of marriage.

But how to get rid of him?  Then, though she might feel humiliated at the baseness of such enjoyment, she clung to it from habit or from corruption, and each day she hungered after them the more, exhausting all felicity in wishing for too much of it.  She accused Leon of her baffled hopes, as if he had betrayed her; and she even longed for some catastrophe that would bring about their separation, since she had not the courage to make up her mind to it herself.

She none the less went on writing him love letters, in virtue of the notion that a woman must write to her lover.

But whilst she wrote it was another man she saw, a phantom fashioned out of her most ardent memories, of her finest reading, her strongest lusts, and at last he became so real, so tangible, that she palpitated wondering, without, however, the power to imagine him clearly, so lost was he, like a god, beneath the abundance of his attributes.  He dwelt in that azure land where silk ladders hang from balconies under the breath of flowers, in the light of the moon.  She felt him near her; he was coming, and would carry her right away in a kiss.

Then she fell back exhausted, for these transports of vague love wearied her more than great debauchery.

She now felt constant ache all over her.  Often she even received summonses, stamped paper that she barely looked at.  She would have liked not to be alive, or to be always asleep.

On Mid-Lent she did not return to Yonville, but in the evening went to a masked ball.  She wore velvet breeches, red stockings, a club wig, and three-cornered hat cocked on one side.  She danced all night to the wild tones of the trombones; people gathered round her, and in the morning she found herself on the steps of the theatre together with five or six masks, debardeuses* and sailors, Leon’s comrades, who were talking about having supper.

     * People dressed as longshoremen.

The neighbouring cafes were full.  They caught sight of one on the harbour, a very indifferent restaurant, whose proprietor showed them to a little room on the fourth floor.

The men were whispering in a corner, no doubt consorting about expenses.  There were a clerk, two medical students, and a shopman—­what company for her!  As to the women, Emma soon perceived from the tone of their voices that they must almost belong to the lowest class.  Then she was frightened, pushed back her chair, and cast down her eyes.

The others began to eat; she ate nothing.  Her head was on fire, her eyes smarted, and her skin was ice-cold.  In her head she seemed to feel the floor of the ball-room rebounding again beneath the rhythmical pulsation of the thousands of dancing feet.  And now the smell of the punch, the smoke of the cigars, made her giddy.  She fainted, and they carried her to the window.