but sweet, never looked anything but lovely, and were
never restless. Why was one restless, wanting
things that did not come—wanting to feel
and know, wanting to love, and be loved? And
at that thought which had come to her so unexpectedly—a
thought never before shaped so definitely—Nedda
planted her arms on the window-sill, with sleeves
fallen down, and let her hands meet cup-shaped beneath
her chin. Love! To have somebody with
whom she could share everything—some one
to whom and for whom she could give up—some
one she could protect and comfort—some one
who would bring her peace. Peace, rest—from
what? Ah! that she could not make clear, even
to herself. Love! What would love be like?
Her father loved her, and she loved him. She
loved her mother; and Alan on the whole was jolly
to her—it was not that. What was it—
where was it—when would it come and wake
her, and kiss her to sleep, all in one? Come
and fill her as with the warmth and color, the freshness,
light, and shadow of this beautiful May evening, flood
her as with the singing of those birds, and the warm
light sunning the apple blossoms. And she sighed.
Then—as with all young things whose attention
after all is but as the hovering of a butterfly—her
speculation was attracted to a thin, high-shouldered
figure limping on a stick, away from the house, down
one of the paths among the apple-trees. He wavered,
not knowing, it seemed, his way. And Nedda thought:
‘Poor old man, how lame he is!’ She saw
him stoop, screened, as he evidently thought, from
sight, and take something very small from his pocket.
He gazed, rubbed it, put it back; what it was she
could not see. Then pressing his hand down,
he smoothed and stretched his leg. His eyes seemed
closed. So a stone man might have stood!
Till very slowly he limped on, passing out of sight.
And turning from the window, Nedda began hurrying
into her evening things.
When she was ready she took a long time to decide
whether to wear her mother’s lace or keep it
for the Bigwigs. But it was so nice and creamy
that she simply could not take it off, and stood turning
and turning before the glass. To stand before
a glass was silly and old-fashioned; but Nedda could
never help it, wanting so badly to be nicer to look
at than she was, because of that something that some
day was coming!
She was, in fact, pretty, but not merely pretty—there
was in her face something alive and sweet, something
clear and swift. She had still that way of a
child raising its eyes very quickly and looking straight
at you with an eager innocence that hides everything
by its very wonder; and when those eyes looked down
they seemed closed—their dark lashes were
so long. Her eyebrows were wide apart, arching
with a slight angle, and slanting a little down toward
her nose. Her forehead under its burnt-brown
hair was candid; her firm little chin just dimpled.
Altogether, a face difficult to take one’s