look at myself with Paul’s deep and holy eyes.
Let me henceforth seat Christ, my Redeemer and my
King, in the very throne of my heart, and then keep
every gate of my body and every avenue of my mind
as all not any more mine own but His. Let me
open my eye, and my ear, and my mouth, as if in all
that I were opening Christ’s eye and Christ’s
ear and Christ’s mouth; and let me thrust in
nothing on Him as He dwells within me that will make
Him ashamed or angry, or that will defile and pollute
Him. That thought, O God, I feel that it will
often arrest me in time to come in the very act of
sin. It will make me start back before I make
Christ cruel or false, a wine-bibber, a glutton, or
unclean. I feel at this moment as if I shall
yet come to ask Him at every meal, and at every other
opportunity and temptation of every kind, what He
would have and what He would do before I go on to
take or to do anything myself. What a check,
what a restraint, what an awful scrupulosity that
will henceforth work in me! But, through that,
what a pure, blameless, noble, holy and heavenly life
I shall then lead! What bodily pains, diseases,
premature decays; what mental remorses, what shames
and scandals, what self-loathings and what self-disgusts,
what cups bitterer to drink than blood, I shall then
escape! Yes, O Paul, I shall henceforth hold
with thee that my body is the temple of Christ, and
that I am not my own, but that I am bought with a
transporting price, and can, therefore, do nothing
less than glorify God in my body and in my spirit
which are God’s. ‘This place,’
says the Pauline author of the
Holy War—’This
place the King intended but for Himself alone, and
not for another with Him.’
But, my brethren, lay this well, and as never before,
to heart—this, namely, that when you thus
begin to keep any gate for Christ, your King and Captain
and Better-self,—Ear-gate, or Eye-gate,
or Mouth-gate, or any other gate—you will
have taken up a task that shall have no end with you
in this life. Till you begin in dead earnest
to watch your heart, and all the doors of your heart,
as if you were watching Christ’s heart for Him
and all the doors of His heart, you will have no idea
of the arduousness and the endurance, the sleeplessness
and the self-denial, of the undertaking.
’Mansoul! Her wars seemed
endless in her eyes;
She’s lost by one, becomes
another’s prize.
Mansoul! Her mighty wars,
they did portend
Her weal or woe and that world without
end.
Wherefore she must be more concern’d
than they
Whose fears begin and end the self-same
day.’
‘We all thought one battle would decide it,’
says Richard Baxter, writing about the Civil War.
‘But we were all very much mistaken,’
sardonically adds Carlyle. Yes; and you will
be very much mistaken too if you enter on the war
with sin in your soul, in your senses and in your members,
with powder and shot for one engagement only.
When you enlist here, lay well to heart that it is
for life. There is no discharge in this war.
There are no ornamental old pensioners here.
It is a warfare for eternal life, and nothing will
end it but the end of your evil days on earth.