to their throat, that same knife must be made to draw
blood in all parts of their mind and their heart, in
their will and in their imagination, till a perfect
chorus of self-denials rings like noblest martial
music through all the gates, and streets, and fortresses,
and strongholds, and very palaces and temples of the
soul. I shall here stand aside and let the greatest
of the English mystics speak to you on this present
point. ‘When we speak of self-denial,’
he says, in his
Christian Perfection, ’we
are apt to confine it to eating and drinking:
but we ought to consider that, though a strict temperance
be necessary in these things, yet that these are the
easiest and the smallest instances of self-denial.
Pride, vanity, self-love, covetousness, envy, and
other inclinations of the like nature call for a more
constant and a more watchful self-denial than the appetites
of hunger and thirst. And till we enter into
this course of universal self-denial we shall make
no progress in real piety, but our lives will be a
ridiculous mixture of I know not what; sober and covetous,
proud and devout, temperate and vain, regular in our
forms of devotion and irregular in all our passions,
circumspect in little modes of behaviour and careless
and negligent of tempers the most essential to piety.
And thus it will necessarily be with us till we lay
the axe to the root of the tree, till we deny and
renounce the whole corruption of our nature, and resign
ourselves up entirely to the Spirit of God, to think
and speak and act by the wisdom and the purity of
religion.’
5. Stout as Captain Self-denial was, and notable
alarms and some brisk execution as he did upon the
enemy, yet he must meet with some brushes himself;
indeed, he carried several of the marks of such brushes
on his face as well as on some other parts of his
body. If I had read in his history that Young
Captain Self-denial had left his mark upon his enemies,
I would have said, Well done, and I would have added
that I always expected as much. But it is far
more to my purpose to read that he had not always
got himself off without wounds that left lasting scars
both where they were seen of all, and where they were
seen and felt only by Self-denial himself. And
not Self-denial only, but even Paul, in our flesh,
and with like passions with us, had the same experience
and has left us the same record. ‘I keep
my body under’: so our emasculated English
version makes us read it. But the visual image
in the masterly original Greek is not so mealy-mouthed.
I box and buffet myself day and night, says Paul.
I play the truculent tyrant over a lewd and lazy
slave. I hit myself blinding blows on my tenderest
part. I am ashamed to look at myself in the
glass, for all under my eyes I am black and blue.
If David, after the matter of Uriah, had done that
to himself, and even more than that, we would not
have wondered; we would have expected it, and we would
have said, It is no more than we would have done ourselves.