party; let him cease being profitable to you; let
him weary of flattering you with his praise; let him
forget you, neglect you, despise you, and go against
you, and then look at your own heart. Do you
care now to know what malice is? Well, that is
malice that distorts and rends your heart as often
as you meet that man on the street or even pass by
his door. That is malice that dances in your
eyes when you see his name in print. That is
malice with which you always break out when his name
is mentioned in conversation. That is malice
that heats your heart when you suddenly recollect him
in the multitude of your thoughts within you.
And you are in good company all the time. ’We,
ourselves,’ says Paul to Titus, ’we also
at one time lived in malice and in envy. We
were hateful and we hated one another.’
‘Hateful,’ Goodwin goes on in his great
book, ’every man is to another man more or less;
he is hated of another and he hateth another more
or less; and if his nature were let out to the full,
there is that in him, “every man is against
every man,” as is said of Ishmael.
Homo homini
lupus,’ adds our brave preacher. And
Abbe Grou speaks out with the same challenge from the
opposite church pole, and says: ’Yes; self-love
makes us touchy, ready to take offence, ill-tempered,
suspicious, severe, exacting, easily offended; it
keeps alive in our hearts a certain malignity, a secret
joy at the mortifications which befall our neighbour;
it nourishes our readiness to criticise, our dislike
at certain persons, our ill-feeling, our bitterness,
and a thousand other things prejudicial to charity.’
3. ‘Myself is my own worst enemy,’
says Abbe Grou. That is to say, we may have
enemies who hate us more than we hate ourselves, and
enemies who would hurt us, if they could, as much
as we hurt ourselves; but the Abbe’s point is
that they cannot. And he is right. No man
has ever hurt me as I have hurt myself. There
are men who hate me so much that they would poison
my life of all its peace and happiness if they could.
But they cannot. They cannot; but let them
not be cast down on that account, for there is one
who can do, and who will do as long as he lives, what
they cannot do. A man’s foes, to be called
foes, are in his own house: they are in his own
heart. Let our enemies attend to their own peace
and happiness, and our self-love will do all, and
more than all, that they would fain do. At the
most, they and their ill-will can only give occasion
to our self-love; but it is our self-love that seizes
upon the occasion, and through it rends and distorts
our own hearts. And were our hearts only pure
of self-love, were our hearts only clothed with meekness
and humility, we could laugh at all the ill-will of
our enemies as leviathan laughs at the shaking of
a spear. ‘Know thou,’ says A Kempis
to his son, ’that the love of thyself doth do
thee more hurt than anything in the whole world.’
Yes; but we shall never know that by merely reading