springs to prevent jarring. The sides and roof
of the vehicle were of lightly paneled wood, instead
of the usual hooked canvas frame of the ordinary emigrant
wagon, and fitted with a glazed door and movable window
for light and air. Clarence wondered why the
big, powerful man, who seemed at home on horseback,
should ever care to sit in this office like a merchant
or a lawyer; and if this train sold things to the
other trains, or took goods, like the peddlers, to
towns on the route; but there seemed to be nothing
to sell, and the other wagons were filled with only
the goods required by the party. He would have
liked to ask Mr. Peyton who he was, and have
questioned him as freely as he himself had been
questioned. But as the average adult man never
takes into consideration the injustice of denying
to the natural and even necessary curiosity of childhood
that questioning which he himself is so apt to assume
without right, and almost always without delicacy,
Clarence had no recourse. Yet the boy, like all
children, was conscious that if he had been afterwards
questioned about this inexplicable experience,
he would have been blamed for his ignorance concerning
it. Left to himself presently, and ensconced
between the sheets, he lay for some moments staring
about him. The unwonted comfort of his couch,
so different from the stuffy blanket in the hard wagon
bed which he had shared with one of the teamsters,
and the novelty, order, and cleanliness of his surroundings,
while they were grateful to his instincts, began in
some vague way to depress him. To his loyal nature
it seemed a tacit infidelity to his former rough companions
to be lying here; he had a dim idea that he had lost
that independence which equal discomfort and equal
pleasure among them had given him. There seemed
a sense of servitude in accepting this luxury which
was not his. This set him endeavoring to remember
something of his father’s house, of the large
rooms, drafty staircases, and far-off ceilings, and
the cold formality of a life that seemed made up of
strange faces; some stranger—his parents;
some kinder—the servants; particularly
the black nurse who had him in charge. Why did
Mr. Peyton ask him about it? Why, if it were
so important to strangers, had not his mother told
him more of it? And why was she not like this
good woman with the gentle voice who was so kind to—to
Susy? And what did they mean by making him
so miserable? Something rose in his throat, but
with an effort he choked it back, and, creeping from
the lounge, went softly to the window, opened it to
see if it “would work,” and looked out.
The shrouded camp fires, the stars that glittered
but gave no light, the dim moving bulk of a patrol
beyond the circle, all seemed to intensify the darkness,
and changed the current of his thoughts. He remembered
what Mr. Peyton had said of him when they first met.
“Suthin of a pup, ain’t he?” Surely
that meant something that was not bad! He crept
back to the couch again.