He sprang to his feet and crushed the letter into his pocket.  He felt none of the exultation of the huntsman—­only sadness at the fate of the hunted thing that lay at his feet.  Once before the same feeling had come over him.  It was when, after the long struggle up the river, through the forests, swamps, jungle grass that cut the body of a man as though it were sharp wire, he fired his shot and the meteor-bird fell at his feet.  After the first few panting breaths that came to him he had stood leaning on his gun, looking down at that beautiful thing which he had deprived of life.

“What am I that I should have done this thing?” he had asked himself on that evening, while the blacks had yelled around him like devils.

“What am I that I should do this thing?” was his cry now, as the voice of many demons sounded in his ears.

What was he that he should rejoice at receiving that letter from the woman over whose head the waters were closing?

He ordered his horse and, mounting it, rode to where he could put it to the gallop.  So men try to leave behind them the sneering demons of conscience and self-reproach.  Some of them succeed in doing so, but find the pair waiting for them on their own doorstep.  Herbert Courtland galloped his horse intermittently for an hour or two, and then rode leisurely back to his rooms.  He felt that he had got the better of those two enemies of his who had been irritating him.  He heard their voices no longer.  He had lost them (he fancied), because there had come to him another voice that said: 

“I love her—­I love her.”

And whensoever that voice comes to a man as it came to Herbert Courtland it drowns all other voices.  He would love her to the end of his life.  Their life together would be the real life for which men and women have come into the world.  He would go to her, and so far from allowing her to sink beneath the waters down to hell, his arms would be around her to bear her up until—­well, is it not generally conceded that love is heaven and heaven is love?

He seated himself at a desk and wrote to her an impassioned line.  He would go to her, he said.  If death should come to him the next day he would still thank God for having given him an hour of life.

That was what he said—­all.  It expressed pretty well what he felt he should feel.  That reference to God she would, of course, understand.  God was to him a Figure of Speech.  He had said as much to Phyllis Ayrton.  But then he had said that he had regarded God to mean the Power by which men were able (sometimes) successfully to combat the influences of nature.  But had he not just then made up his mind to yield to that passion which God, as a Principle, has the greatest difficulty in opposing?  Why, then, should he expect that Ella would understand precisely what he meant in saying that he would thank God for his hour of life, his hour of love?