of their grasp; the pretentious great booby, at whose
idiotic eulogy you must appear to be transported with
gladness, and who, lest he should spoil you too much,
accompanies it with “a few little reserves,”
and the other, who, while overwhelming you with compliments,
demonstrates to you that you have not learned the
first word of your profession; and the excellent busy
fellow, who stops just long enough to whisper in your
ear “that so-and-so, the famous critic, does
not look very pleased.” Felicia listened
to it all with the greatest calm, raised by her success
above the littleness of envy, and quite proud when
a glorious veteran, some old comrade of her father,
threw to her a “You’ve done very well,
little one!” which took her back to the past,
to the little corner reserved for her in the old days
in her father’s studio, when she was beginning
to carve out a little glory for herself under the
protection of the renown of the great Ruys. But,
taken altogether, the congratulations left her rather
cold, because there lacked one which she desired more
than any other, and which she was surprised not to
have yet received. Decidedly he was more often
in her thoughts than any other man had ever been.
Was it love at last, the great love which is so rare
in an artist’s soul, incapable as that is of
giving itself entirely up to the sway of sentiment,
or was it perhaps simply a dream of honest
bourgeoise
life, well sheltered against
ennui, that spiritless
ennui, the precursor of storms, which she had
so much reason to dread? In any case, she was
herself taken in by it, and had been living for some
days past in a state of delicious trouble, for love
is so strong, so beautiful a thing, that its semblances,
its mirages, allure and can move us as deeply as itself.
Has it ever happened to you in the street, when you
have been preoccupied with thoughts of some one dear
to you, to be warned of his approach by meeting persons
with a vague resemblance to him, preparatory images,
sketches of the type to appear directly afterward,
which stand out for you from the crowd like successive
appeals to your overexcited attention? Such presentiments
are magnetic and nervous impressions at which one
should not be too disposed to smile, since they constitute
a faculty of suffering. Already, in the moving
and constantly renewed stream of visitors, Felicia
had several times thought to recognise the curly head
of Paul de Gery, when suddenly she uttered a cry of
joy. It was not he, however, this time again,
but some one who resembled him closely, whose regular
and peaceful physiognomy was always now connected
in her mind with that of her friend Paul through the
effect of a likeness more moral than physical, and
the gentle authority which both exercised over her
thoughts.
“Aline!”
“Felicia!”