She paused, and Broomhurst rose and began to pace the little hillside path at the edge of which they were seated.

Presently he came back to her.

“Kathleen, let me take care of you,” he implored, stooping toward her.  “We have only ourselves to consider in this matter.  Will you come to me at once?”

She shook her head sadly.

Broomhurst set his teeth, and the lines round his mouth deepened.  He threw himself down beside her on the heather.

“Dear,” he urged, still gently, though his voice showed he was controlling himself with an effort, “you are morbid about this.  You have been alone too much; you are ill.  Let me take care of you; I can, Kathleen,—­and I love you.  Nothing but morbid fancy makes you imagine you are in any way responsible for—­Drayton’s death.  You can’t bring him back to life, and—­”

“No,” she sighed, drearily, “and if I could, nothing would be altered.  Though I am mad with self-reproach, I feel that—­it was all so inevitable.  If he were alive and well before me this instant, my feeling toward him wouldn’t have changed.  If he spoke to me he would say ’my dear’—­and I should loathe him.  Oh, I know!  It is that that makes it so awful.”

“But if you acknowledge it,” Broomhurst struck in, eagerly, “will you wreck both of our lives for the sake of vain regrets?  Kathleen, you never will.”

He waited breathlessly for her answer.

“I won’t wreck both our lives by marrying again without love on my side,” she replied, firmly.

“I will take the risk,” he said.  “You have loved me; you will love me again.  You are crushed and dazed now with brooding over this—­this trouble, but—­”

“But I will not allow you to take the risk,” Kathleen answered.  “What sort of woman should I be to be willing again to live with a man I don’t love?  I have come to know that there are things one owes to one’s self.  Self-respect is one of them.  I don’t know how it has come to be so, but all my old feeling for you has gone.  It is as though it had burned itself out.  I will not offer gray ashes to any man.”

Broomhurst, looking up at her pale, set face, knew that her words were final, and turned his own aside with a groan.

“Ah,” cried Kathleen, with a little break in her voice, “don’t! Go away, and be happy and strong, and all that I loved in you.  I am so sorry—­so sorry to hurt you.  I—­” her voice faltered miserably; “I—­I only bring trouble to people.”

There was a long pause.

“Did you never think that there is a terrible vein of irony running through the ordering of this world?” she said, presently.  “It is a mistake to think our prayers are not answered—­they are.  In due time we get our heart’s desire—­when we have ceased to care for it.”

“I haven’t yet got mine,” Broomhurst answered, doggedly, “and I shall never cease to care for it.”