I received no answer. I waited three years, placing
all my hopes on that answer. At last I resigned
myself to my life. To the five hundred francs
I received from the Funds I now added twelve hundred
from the Mont-de-piete (for they raised my salary),
and five hundred which I obtained from Monsieur Cesar
Birotteau, perfumer, for keeping his books in the
evening. Thus, not only did I manage to get along
comfortably, but I laid by eight hundred francs a
year. At the beginning of 1814 I invested nine
thousand francs of my savings at forty francs in the
Funds, and thus I was sure of sixteen hundred francs
a year for my old age. By that time I had fifteen
hundred a year from the Mont-de-piete, six hundred
for my book-keeping, sixteen hundred from the Funds;
in all, three thousand seven hundred francs a year.
I took a lodging in the rue de Seine, and lived a
little better. My place had brought me into relations
with many unfortunates. For the last twelve years
I had known better than any man whatsoever the misery
of the poor. Once or twice I had been able to
do a real service. I felt a vivid pleasure when
I found that out of ten persons relieved, one or two
households had been put on their feet. It came
into my mind that benevolence ought not to consist
in throwing money to those who suffered. ’Doing
charity,’ to use that common expression, seemed
to me too often a premium offered to crime. I
began to study the question. I was then fifty
years of age, and my life was nearly over. ‘Of
what good am I?’ thought I. ’To whom
can I leave my savings? When I have furnished
my rooms handsomely, and found a good cook, and made
my life suitable in all respects, what then?—how
shall I employ my time?’ Eleven years of revolution,
and fifteen years of poverty, had, as I may say, eaten
up the most precious parts of my life,—used
it up in sterile toil for my own individual preservation.
No man at the age of fifty could spring from that
obscure, repressed condition to a brilliant future;
but every man could be of use. I understood by
this time that watchful care and wise counsels have
tenfold greater value than money given; for the poor,
above all things, need a guide, if only in the labor
they do for others, for speculators are never lacking
to take advantage of them. Here I saw before
me both an end and an occupation, not to speak of
the exquisite enjoyments obtained by playing in a
miniature way the role of Providence.”
“And to-day you play it in a grand way, do you not?” asked Godefroid, eagerly.
“Ah! you want to know everything,” said the old man. “No, no! Would you believe it,” he continued after this interruption, “the smallness of my means to do the work I now desired to do brought back the thought of Mongenod. ‘If it were not for Mongenod,’ I kept saying to myself, ’I could do so much more. If a dishonest man had not deprived me of fifteen hundred francs a year I could save this or that poor family.’ Excusing my own impotence by accusing another, I felt