Somehow I had the feeling that Miss Emily would never reopen the subject again. She had given me my chance, at who knows what cost, and I had not taken it. There had been something in her good-by—I can not find words for it, but it was perhaps a finality, an effect of a closed door—that I felt without being able to analyze.
I walked back to the house, refusing the offices of Mr. Staley, who met me on the road. I needed to think. But thinking took me nowhere. Only one conclusion stood out as a result of a mile and a half of mental struggle. Something must be done. Miss Emily ought to be helped. She was under a strain that was killing her.
But to help I should know the facts. Only, were there any facts to know? Suppose—just by way of argument, for I did not believe it— that the confession was true; how could I find out anything about it? Five years was a long time. I could not go to the neighbors. They were none too friendly as it was. Besides, the secret, if there was one, was not mine, but was Miss Emily’s.
I reached home at last, and smuggled the shawl into the house. I had no intention of explaining its return to Maggie. Yet, small as it was in its way, it offered a problem at once. For Maggie has a penetrating eye and an inquiring nature. I finally decided to take the bull by the horns and hang it in its accustomed place in the hall, where Maggie, finding it at nine o’clock that evening, set up such a series of shrieks and exclamations as surpassed even her own record.
I knitted that evening. It has been my custom for years to knit bedroom-slippers for an old ladies’ home in which I am interested. Because I can work at them with my eyes shut, through long practise, I find the work soothing. So that evening I knitted at Eliza Klinordlinger’s fifth annual right slipper, and tried to develop a course of action.
I began with a major premise—to regard the confession as a real one, until it was proved otherwise. Granted, then, that my little old Miss Emily had killed a woman.
1st—Who was the woman?
2nd—Where is the body?
3rd—What was the reason for the crime?
Question two I had a tentative answer for. However horrible and incredible it seemed, it was at least possible that Miss Emily had substituted the body for the books, and that what Mrs. Graves described as a rite had indeed been one. But that brought up a picture I could not face. And yet—
I called up the local physician, a Doctor Lingard, that night and asked him about Miss Emily’s condition. He was quite frank with me.
“It’s just a breaking up,” he said. “It has come early, because she has had a trying life, and more responsibility than she should have had.”
“I have been wondering if a change of scene would not be a good thing,” I suggested. But he was almost scornful.
“Change!” he said. “I’ve been after her to get away for years. She won’t leave. I don’t believe she has been twelve miles away in thirty years.”