We celebrated our union in secret, and secret it must remain between us.  When you are married you will approve this reserve.  Enough that nothing was lacking either of satisfaction for the most fastidious sentiment, or of that unexpectedness which brings, in a sense, its own sanction.  Every witchery of imagination, of passion, of reluctance overcome, of the ideal passing into reality, played its part.

Yet, in spite of all this enchantment, I once more stood out for my complete independence.  I can’t tell you all my reasons for this.  To you alone shall I confide even as much as this.  I believe that women, whether passionately loved or not, lose much in their relation with their husbands by not concealing their feelings about marriage and the way they look at it.

My one joy, and it is supreme, springs from the certainty of having brought new life to my husband before I have borne him any children.  Louis has regained his youth, strength, and spirits.  He is not the same man.  With magic touch I have effaced the very memory of his sufferings.  It is a complete metamorphosis.  Louis is really very attractive now.  Feeling sure of my affection, he throws off his reserve and displays unsuspected gifts.

To be the unceasing spring of happiness for a man who knows it and adds gratitude to love, ah! dear one, this is a conviction which fortifies the soul, even more than the most passionate love can do.  The force thus developed—­at once impetuous and enduring, simple and diversified—­brings forth ultimately the family, that noble product of womanhood, which I realize now in all its animating beauty.

The old father has ceased to be a miser.  He gives blindly whatever I wish for.  The servants are content; it seems as though the bliss of Louis had let a flood of sunshine into the household, where love has made me queen.  Even the old man would not be a blot upon my pretty home, and has brought himself into line with all my improvements; to please me he has adopted the dress, and with the dress, the manners of the day.

We have English horses, a coupe, a barouche, and a tilbury.  The livery of our servants is simple but in good taste.  Of course we are looked on as spendthrifts.  I apply all my intellect (I am speaking quite seriously) to managing my household with economy, and obtaining for it the maximum of pleasure with the minimum of cost.

I have already convinced Louis of the necessity of getting roads made, in order that he may earn the reputation of a man interested in the welfare of his district.  I insist too on his studying a great deal.  Before long I hope to see him a member of the Council General of the Department, through the influence of my family and his mother’s.  I have told him plainly that I am ambitious, and that I was very well pleased his father should continue to look after the estate and practise economies, because I wished him to devote himself exclusively to politics.