seeing only a withered tree, another by reading the
lives and deaths of the antediluvian fathers, one
by hearing of heaven, another of hell, one by reading
of the love or wrath of God, another of the sufferings
of Christ, may find himself, as it were, melted into
penitence all of a sudden. It may be granted
also that the greatest sinner may in a moment be converted
to God, and may feel himself wounded in such a degree
as perhaps those never were who have been turning
to God all their lives. But, then, it is to
be observed that this suddenness of change or flash
of conviction is by no means of the essence of true
conversion. This stroke of conversion is not
to be considered as signifying our high state of a
new birth in Christ, or a proof that we are on a sudden
made new creatures, but that we are thus suddenly
called upon and stirred up to look after a newness
of nature. The renewal of our first birth and
state is something entirely distinct from our first
sudden conversion and call to repentance. That
is not a thing done in an instant, but is a certain
process, a gradual release from our captivity and disorder,
consisting of several stages and degrees, both of
life and death, which the soul must go through before
it can have thoroughly put off the old man. It
is well worth observing that our Saviour’s greatest
trials were near the end of His life. This might
sufficiently show us that our first awakenings have
carried us but a little way; that we should not then
begin to be self-assured of our own salvation, but
should remember that we stand at a great distance
from, and are in great ignorance of, our severest trials.”
Such was the way that Christian in his experience and
in his wisdom talked to his young companion till his
outward trials and the consequent discoveries he made
of his own weakness and corruption made even Hopeful
himself a sober-minded and a thoughtful man.
“Where pain ends, gain ends too.”
Then, again, no one can read Hopeful’s remarkable
history without discovering this about him, that he
showed best in adversity and distress, just as he
showed worst in deliverance and prosperity. It
is a fine lesson in Christian hope to descend into
Giant Despair’s dungeon and hear the older pilgrim
groaning and the younger pilgrim consoling him, and,
again, to stand on the bank of the last river and hear
Hopeful holding up Christian’s drowning head.
“Be of good cheer, my brother, for I feel the
bottom, and it is good!” Bless Hopeful for that,
all you whose deathbeds are still before you.
For never was more true and fit word spoken for a
dying hour than that. Read, till you have it
by heart and in the dark, Hopeful’s whole history,
but especially his triumphant end. And have
some one bespoken beforehand to read Hopeful in the
River to you when you have in a great measure lost
your senses, and when a great horror has taken hold
of your mind. “I sink in deep waters,”
cried Christian, as his sins came to his mind, even
the sins which he had committed both since and before
he came to be a pilgrim. “But I see the
gate,” said Hopeful, “and men standing
at it ready to receive us.” “Read
to me where I first cast my anchor,” said John
Knox to his weeping wife.