in his dolours, as his tears, his prayers, his gnashing
of teeth, his wringing of hands, was as knives and
daggers in my soul, especially that sentence of his
was frightful to me: “Man knows the beginning
of sin, but who bounds the issues thereof?"’
We never read anything like Spira’s experience
and
Grace Abounding and Giant Despair’s
dungeon in the books of our day. And why not,
do you think? Is there less sin among us modern
men, or did such writers as John Bunyan overdraw and
exaggerate the sinfulness of sin? Were they
wrong in holding so fast as they did hold that death
and hell are the sure wages of sin? Has divine
justice become less fearful than it used to be to
those who rush against it, or is it that we are so
much better men? Is our faith stronger and more
victorious over doubt and fear? Is it that our
hope is better anchored? Whatever the reason
is, there can be no question but that we walk in a
liberty that our fathers did not always walk in.
Whether or no our liberty is not recklessness and
licentiousness is another matter. Whether or
no it would be a better sign of us if we were better
acquainted with doubt and dejection and diffidence,
and even despair, is a question it would only do us
good to put to ourselves. When we properly attend
to these matters we shall find out that, the holier
a man is, the more liable he is to the assaults of
doubt and fear and even despair. We have whole
psalms of despair, so deep was David’s sense
of sin, so high were his views of God’s holiness
and justice, and so full of diffidence was his wounded
heart. And David’s Son, when our sin was
laid upon Him, felt the curse and the horror of His
state so much that His sweat was in drops of blood,
and His cry in the darkness was that His God had forsaken
Him. And when our spirits are wounded with our
sins, as the spirits of all God’s great saints
have always been wounded, we too shall feel ourselves
more at home with David and with Asaph, with Spira
even, and with Bunyan. Despair is not good,
but it is infinitely better than indifference.
’It is a common saying,’ says South,
’and an observation in divinity, that where despair
has slain its thousands, presumption has slain its
ten thousands. The agonies of the former are
indeed more terrible, but the securities of the latter
are far more fatal.’
5. ‘I will,’ says Paul to Timothy,
’that men pray everywhere, lifting up holy hands
without doubting.’ And, just as Paul would
have it, Christian and Hopeful began to lift up their
hands even in the dungeon of Doubting Castle.
‘Well,’ we read, ’on Saturday night
about midnight they began to pray, and continued in
prayer till almost break of day. Now, before
it was day, good Christian, as one half amazed, broke
out in this passionate speech: “What a
fool,” quoth he, “am I thus to lie in a
stinking dungeon when I may as well walk at liberty;
I have a key in my bosom, called Promise, that will,
I am persuaded, open any lock in all Doubting Castle.”
Then said Hopeful: “That’s good news,
good brother; pluck it out of thy bosom and try."’
Then Christian pulled the key out of his bosom and
the bolt gave back, and Christian and Hopeful both
came out, and you may be sure they were soon out of
the giant’s jurisdiction.