sicken and lose heart and sit solitary when you carry
to them a good report. They feel as John Bunyan
felt, that no one but the devil can equal them in
pollution of heart. And their wonder sometimes
is that the Searcher of Hearts does not drive them
down where devils dwell and hate God and man and one
another. They look around them when the penitential
psalm is being sung, and they smile bitterly to themselves.
O people of God, they say, you do not know what you
are saying. Leave that psalm to me. I can
sing it. I can tell to God what He knows about
sin, and about sin in the heart. Stand away
back from me, that man says, for I am a leper.
The chief of sinners is beside you. A whited
sepulchre stands open beside you.—Stop
now, O hating and hateful man, and let me speak for
a single moment before we separate. Before you
say any more about yourself, and before you leave
the house of God, lift up your broken heart and with
all your might bless God that He has opened your eyes
and taught you how to look at yourself and how to
hate yourself. There are hundreds of honest
Christian men and women in this house at this moment
to whom God has not done as, in His free grace, He
has done to you. For He has not only begun a
good work in you, but He has begun that special and
peculiar work which, when it goes on to perfection,
makes a great and an eminent saint of God. To
know your own heart as you evidently know it, and to
hate it as you say you hate it, and to hunger after
a clean heart as, with every breath, you hunger,—all
that, if you would only believe it, sets you, or will
yet set you, high up among the people of God.
Be comforted; it is your bounden duty to be comforted.
God deserves it at your hands that you be more than
comforted amid such unmistakable signs of His eminent
grace to you. And be patient under your exceptional
sanctification. Rome was not built in a day.
You cannot reverse the awful law of your sanctification.
You cannot be saved by Jesus Christ and His Holy Spirit
without seeing yourself, and you cannot see yourself
without hating yourself, and you cannot begin to hate
yourself without all your hatred henceforth turning
against yourself. You are deep in the red-hot
bosom of the refiner’s fire. And when
you are once sufficiently tried by the Divine Refiner
of Souls, He will in His own good time and way bring
you out as gold. Be patient, therefore, till
the coming of the Lord. And say continually
amid all your increasing knowledge of yourself, and
amid all your increasing hatred of yourself, ’As
for me, I will behold Thy face in righteousness; I
shall be satisfied when I awake with Thy likeness.’
FAITHFUL IN VANITY FAIR {2}
’Be thou faithful.’—Rev. 2. 10.