helps me and Katya out, hurriedly asks questions, laughs, rubs his hands, and that gentle, imploring, pure expression, which I used to notice only in his eyes, is now suffused all over his face.  He is glad and at the same time he is ashamed of his gladness, ashamed of his habit of spending every evening with Katya.  And he thinks it necessary to explain his visit by some obvious absurdity such as:  “I was driving by, and I thought I would just look in for a minute.”

We all three go indoors; first we drink tea, then the familiar packs of cards, the big piece of cheese, the fruit, and the bottle of Crimean champagne are put upon the table.  The subjects of our conversation are not new; they are just the same as in the winter.  We fall foul of the University, the students, and literature and the theatre; the air grows thick and stifling with evil speaking, and poisoned by the breath, not of two toads as in the winter, but of three.  Besides the velvety baritone laugh and the giggle like the gasp of a concertina, the maid who waits upon us hears an unpleasant cracked “He, he!” like the chuckle of a general in a vaudeville.

V

There are terrible nights with thunder, lightning, rain, and wind, such as are called among the people “sparrow nights.”  There has been one such night in my personal life.

I woke up after midnight and leaped suddenly out of bed.  It seemed to me for some reason that I was just immediately going to die.  Why did it seem so?  I had no sensation in my body that suggested my immediate death, but my soul was oppressed with terror, as though I had suddenly seen a vast menacing glow of fire.

I rapidly struck a light, drank some water straight out of the decanter, then hurried to the open window.  The weather outside was magnificent.  There was a smell of hay and some other very sweet scent.  I could see the spikes of the fence, the gaunt, drowsy trees by the window, the road, the dark streak of woodland, there was a serene, very bright moon in the sky and not a single cloud, perfect stillness, not one leaf stirring.  I felt that everything was looking at me and waiting for me to die....

It was uncanny.  I closed the window and ran to my bed.  I felt for my pulse, and not finding it in my wrist, tried to find it in my temple, then in my chin, and again in my wrist, and everything I touched was cold and clammy with sweat.  My breathing came more and more rapidly, my body was shivering, all my inside was in commotion; I had a sensation on my face and on my bald head as though they were covered with spiders’ webs.

What should I do?  Call my family?  No; it would be no use.  I could not imagine what my wife and Liza would do when they came in to me.

I hid my head under the pillow, closed my eyes, and waited and waited....  My spine was cold; it seemed to be drawn inwards, and I felt as though death were coming upon me stealthily from behind.