“I will, my darling, every night.”
“Will grannie never come and kiss me again?”
“Never, Charlie! She will never come to either of us in this life.” A big tear fell on the boy’s forehead.
“Don’t cry, auntie; she loves us all the same.” And he kissed the fair cheek which now lay against his own as his aunt knelt beside his bed.
“Go to sleep, dear love; to-morrow you shall take me to see your garden and the pony.”
“You will be sure to come?”
“Yes, quite sure.”
In a few minutes the clasp of the warm little hand relaxed, and Katherine gently disengaged herself.
“The boys are no longer first in their mother’s heart,” thought Katherine, as she returned to the drawing-room. “Were they ever first? They are—they might become all the world to me. They might fill my life and give it a fresh aspect. The new ties at which Mr. Newton hinted can never exist for me. Could I accept an honorable man and live with a perpetual secret between us? Could I ever confess? No. My most hopeful scheme is to be a mother to these children. And oh! I do want to be happy, to feel the joy in life that used to lift up my spirit in the old days when we were struggling with poverty! I will throw off this load of self-contempt. I have not really injured any one.”
In the drawing-room Colonel Ormonde was seated beside Lady Alice, making conversation to the best of his ability. She looked serenely content, and held a piece of crochet, the kind of fancy-work which occupied the young ladies in the “sixties.” The rector and Mr. Errington were in deep conversation on the hearth-rug, and Mrs. Ormonde was reading the paper.
“So you have been visiting the nursery?” said the Colonel, rising and offering Katherine a chair. “Your first introduction to our young man, I suppose?”
“Yes. What a great boy he is!—the picture of health!”
“Ay, he is a Trojan,” complacently. “The other little fellows are looking well, eh?”
“Very well indeed. Cis is wonderfully grown; but Charlie is much what he was.”