on again: “One evening I went out with another
girl and her brother—at least she said he
was her brother—to see the illuminations
for the Queen’s birthday. In Pall Mall we
got into a crowd caused by a quarrel between two drunken
men. I was separated from my companions, and
one of the crowd, also tipsy, reeled against me.
I should have been knocked down but for a gentleman
who caught me; he had just come down the steps from
one of the clubs. I thanked him. He kindly
helped me to find my companions. He came on with
us almost to the door of Madame Celine’s house.
He talked frankly and pleasantly. Two days after
I was going to the City on madame’s business.
He met me. He said he had watched for me.
There! I cannot go into details. We met
repeatedly. For the first time in my life I was
sought, and, as I believed, warmly loved. I knew
the unspeakable gulf that opened for me, but I loved
him. At last there was light and color in my
poverty-stricken existence.” She stopped,
and a glow came into her sad eyes. “I was
bewildered, distracted, between the passion of my heart
and the resistance of my reason. I ceased to
be the efficient assistant I had been. I was
rebuked, and looked upon coldly. Six months after
I had met
him first, I gave madame warning.
I said I was going into the country. So I was,
but not alone. No one asked me any questions;
no one had a right. I belonged to no one, was
responsible to no one, could wound no one. I
was quite alone, and, oh, so hungry for a little love
and joy!” She paused, and then resumed rapidly,
“I was that man’s unwedded wife for nearly
two years.” She rested her arm on the table,
and hid her face with her hand.
Katherine listened with unspeakable emotion.
The eloquent blood flushed cheek and throat with a
keen sense of shame. She had read and heard of
such painful stories, but to be face to face with a
creature who had crossed the Rubicon, overpassed the
great gulf, which separates the sheep from the goats
was something so unexpected, so terrible, that she
could not restrain a passionate burst of tears.
“Ah,” she murmured at last, “you
were cruelly deceived, no doubt. You are too hard
upon yourself. You——”
“No, Miss Liddell; I am trying to tell you the
whole truth. The man I loved never deceived me—never
held put any hope that we could marry. He was
not rich; there were impediments—what, I
never knew. But I thought such love as he professed,
and at the time felt for me, would last; and so long
as he was mine, I wanted nothing more. Have you
patience to hear more, or have I fallen too low to
retain your interest?”
“Ah, no! tell me everything.”