Joy came as a lark when the
years had gone,
(Ah! hush, hush
still, for the dream is short!)
And I gazed far up to the
melting blue
Where the rare song dropped
like a golden dew.
(Ah! sweet is
the song tho’ the dream be short!)
Joy hovers now in a far-off
mist,
(The night draws
on and the air breathes snow!)
And I reach, sometimes, with
a trembling hand
To the red-tipped cloud of
the joy-bird’s land.
(Alas! for the
days of the storm and the snow!)
To-Morrow.
But one short night between
my Love and me!
I watch the soft-shod
dusk creep wistfully
Through the slow-moving
curtains, pausing by
And shrouding with its spirit-fingers
free
Each well-known
chair. There is a growing grace
Of tender magic
in this little place.
Comes through half-opened
windows, soft and cool
As Spring’s
young breath, the vagrant evening air,
My day-worn soul
is hushed. I fain would bear
No burdens on my brain to-night,
no rule
Of anxious thought;
the world has had my tears,
My thoughts, my
hopes, my aims these many years;
This is Thy hour, and I shall
sink to sleep
With a glad weariness,
to know that when
The new day dawns
I shall lay by my pen
Needed no more. If I,
perchance, should weep
A few quick tears,
so doing, who would guess
’Twas the
last throb of my soul’s loneliness?
Not even thou, Dear Heart,
canst ever know
How I have yearned
these many months, these years
For love, for
thee. As the calm boatman steers
His slender shallop where
he fain would go,
Tempests and rocks
before, so through the dark
To this dim, far-off
day has set my bark.
To-morrow! I can hear
the quick-closed door,
The approaching
steps, my pained heart’s fluttering,
Thy voice, then
Thee! And all the storm and sting
Of bygone griefs are passed
forevermore,
Swept from my
life as the resistless wind
Scatters the chaff,
nor leaves a mote behind.
As long-imprisoned captives
reach the light,
And gaze with
greedy eyes on field and tree,
Drinking the beauties
of the sky and sea
Half fearful of their bliss;
so from the night
Of dreams and
shades, half doubting, we awake
And grasp the
joy we almost fear to take.
Thou hidest in thy warm ones
my cold hand,
Reading my soul
in these unwavering eyes.
Nay, thou hast
known my hopes, my agonies
Through written words, and
thou canst understand.
I have kept nothing
back of all the streams
Of my heart-flowings—doubts,
nor fears, nor dreams.