But I did not ask them yet.  I sat instead with my hands clasping my knee, looking opposite at the glory of harmonious color, or down the glen at the vista of far-off, dream-like loveliness, on which it opened out.  The yellow autumn sunshine made everything golden, the fresh autumn breezes filled the air with life; but to me a loathsome shadow seemed to rest upon all, and to stretch itself out far beyond where my eyes could reach, befouling the beauty of the whole wide world.  At last I spoke.  “You have known of it all, I suppose; of this curse that is in the world,—­sin and suffering, and what such words mean.”

“Yes,” he said, looking at me with wondering pity, “I am afraid so.”

“But have you known them as they are known to some,—­agonized, hopeless suffering, and sin that is all but inevitable?  Some time in your life probably you have realized that such things are:  it has come home to you, and to every one else, no doubt, except a few ignorant girls such as I was yesterday.  But there are some,—­yes, thousands and thousands,—­who even now, at this moment, are feeling sorrow like that, are sinking deep, deeper into the bottomless pit of their soul’s degradation.  And yet men who know this, who have seen it, laugh, talk, are happy, amuse themselves—­how can they, how can they?” I stopped with a catch in my voice, and then stretching out my arms in front of me—­“And it is not only men.  Look how beautiful the earth is, and God has made it, and lets the sun crown it every day with a new glory, while this horror of evil broods over and poisons it all.  Oh, why is it so?  I cannot understand it.”

My arms drooped again as I finished, and my eyes sought Alan’s.  His were full of tears, but there was almost a smile quivering at the corners of his lips as he replied:  “When you have found an answer to that question, Evie, come and tell me and mankind at large:  it will be news to us all.”  Then he continued—­“But, after all, the earth is beautiful, and the sun does shine:  we have our own happiness to rejoice in, our own sorrows to bear, the suffering that is near to us to grapple with.  For the rest, for this blackness of evil which surrounds us, and which we can do nothing to lighten, it will soon, thank God, become vague and far off to you as it is to others:  your feeling of it will be dulled, and, except at moments, you too will forget.”

“But that is horrible,” I exclaimed, passionately; “the evil will be there all the same, whether I feel it or not.  Men and women will be struggling in their misery and sin, only I shall be too selfish to care.”

“We cannot go outside the limits of our own nature,” he replied; “our knowledge is shallow and our spiritual insight dark, and God in His mercy has made our hearts shallow too, and our imagination dull.  If, knowing and trusting only as men do, we were to feel as angels feel, earth would be hell indeed.”

It was cold comfort, but at that moment anything warmer or brighter would have been unreal and utterly repellent to me.  I hardly took in the meaning of his words, but it was as if a hand had been stretched out to me, struggling in the deep mire, by one who himself felt solid ground beneath him.  Where he stood I also might some day stand, and that thought seemed to make patience possible.