The folly became apparent even to myself.  If Bourgonef had in his possession a rouge-pot and false beard, I could not but acknowledge that he made no attempt to conceal them, nor had he manifested any confusion on their appearance.  He had quietly characterized them as masquerading follies.  Moreover, I now began to remember distinctly that the stranger did carry a walking-stick in his right hand; and as Bourgonef had lost his right arm, that settled the point.

Into such complications, would the tricks of imagination lead me!  I blushed mentally, and resolved to let it serve as a lesson in future.  It is needless, however, to say that the lesson was lost, as such lessons always are lost; a strong tendency in any direction soon disregards all the teachings of experience.  I am still not the less the victim of my constructive imagination, because I have frequently had to be ashamed of its vagaries.

The next morning I awoke with a lighter breast, rejoicing in the caution which had delayed me from any rash manifestation of suspicions now seen to be absurd.  I smiled as the thought arose:  what if this suspected stranger should also be pestered by an active imagination, and should entertain similar suspicions of me?  He must have seen in my eyes the look of recognition which I saw in his.  On hearing of the murder, our meeting may also have recurred to him; and his suspicions would have this color, wanting to mine, that I happen to inherit with my Italian blood a somewhat truculent appearance, which has gained for me among my friends the playful sobriquet of “the brigand.”

Anxious to atone at once for my folly, and to remove from my mind any misgiving—­if it existed—­at my quitting him so soon after the disclosures of the masquerading details, I went to Bourgonef as soon as I was dressed and proposed a ramble till the diligence started for Munich.  He was sympathetic in his inquiries about my colic, which I assured him had quite passed away, and out we went.  The sharp morning air of March made us walk briskly, and gave a pleasant animation to our thoughts.  As he discussed the acts of the provisional government, so wise, temperate, and energetic, the fervor and generosity of his sentiments stood out in such striking contrast with the deed I had last night recklessly imputed to him that I felt deeply ashamed, and was nearly carried away by mingled admiration and self-reproach to confess the absurd vagrancy of my thoughts and humbly ask his pardon.  But you can understand the reluctance at a confession so insulting to him, so degrading to me.  It is at all times difficult to tell a man, face to face, eye to eye, the evil you have thought of him, unless the recklessness of anger seizes on it as a weapon with which to strike; and I had now so completely unsaid to myself all that I once had thought of evil, that to put it in words seemed a gratuitous injury to me and insult to him.