for your guests! Aye, and when the feast fails
them, they make a meal of their entertainer!—You
shudder.—Are you, then, the first prisoner
who has been devoured alive by the vermin that infested
his cell?—Delightful banquet, not ’where
you eat, but where you are eaten’! Your
guests, however, will give you one token of repentance
while they feed; there will be gnashing of teeth,
and you shall hear it, and feel it too perchance!—And
then for meals—Oh you are daintily off!—The
soup that the cat has lapped; and (as her progeny
has probably contributed to the hell broth) why not?
Then your hours of solitude, deliciously diversified
by the yell of famine, the howl of madness, the crash
of whips, and the broken-hearted sob of those who,
like you, are supposed, or driven mad by the
crimes of others!—Stanton, do you imagine
your reason can possibly hold out amid such scenes?—
Supposing your reason was unimpaired, your health not
destroyed,— suppose all this, which is,
after all, more than fair supposition can grant, guess
the effect of the continuance of these scenes on your
senses alone. A time will come, and soon, when,
from mere habit, you will echo the scream of every
delirious wretch that harbors near you; then you will
pause, clasp your hands on your throbbing head, and
listen with horrible anxiety whether the scream proceeded
from you or them. The time will come,
when, from the want of occupation, the listless and
horrible vacancy of your hours, you will feel as anxious
to hear those shrieks, as you were at first terrified
to hear them,—when you will watch for the
ravings of your next neighbor, as you would for a scene
on the stage. All humanity will be extinguished
in you. The ravings of these wretches will become
at once your sport and your torture. You will
watch for the sounds, to mock them with the grimaces
and bellowings of a fiend. The mind has a power
of accommodating itself to its situation, that you
will experience in its most frightful and deplorable
efficacy. Then comes the dreadful doubt of one’s
own sanity, the terrible announcer that that doubt
will soon become fear, and that fear certainty.
Perhaps (still more dreadful) the fear will
at last become a hope,—shut out from
society, watched by a brutal keeper, writhing with
all the impotent agony of an incarcerated mind, without
communication and without sympathy, unable to exchange
ideas but with those whose ideas are only the hideous
specters of departed intellect, or even to hear the
welcome sound of the human voice, except to mistake
it for the howl of a fiend, and stop the ear desecrated
by its intrusion,— then at last your fear
will become a more fearful hope; you will wish to
become one of them, to escape the agony of consciousness.
As those who have long leaned over a precipice, have
at last felt a desire to plunge below, to relieve
the intolerable temptation of their giddiness,* you
will hear them laugh amid their wildest paroxysms;