CHAPTER I.

Return to Chappaqua—­A Walk over the Grounds—­The Sidehill House—­Our First Sunday at Chappaqua—­Drive to Mount Kisco—­A Country Church—­A Dame Chatelaine—­Our Domestic Surroundings.

Chappaqua, Westchester Co.,

New York, May 28, 1873

Again at dear Chappaqua, after an absence of seven months.  I have not the heart to journalize tonight, everything seems so sad and strange.  What a year this has been—­what bright anticipations, what overwhelming sorrow!

May 30.

I have just returned from a long ramble over the dear old place; first up to the new house so picturesquely placed upon a hill, and down through the woods to the cool pine grove and the flower-garden.  Here I found a wilderness of purple and white lilacs, longing, I thought, for a friendly hand to gather them before they faded; dear little bright-eyed pansies, and scarlet and crimson flowering shrubs, a souvenir of travel in England, with sweet-scented violets striped blue and white, transplanted from Pickie’s little garden at Turtle Bay long years ago.

[Illustration:  The Side-Hill House.]

Returning, I again climbed the hill, and unlocked the doors of the new house; that house built expressly for Aunt Mary’s comfort, but which has never yet been occupied.  Every convenience of the architect’s art is to be found in this house, from the immense, airy bedroom, with its seven windows, intended for Aunt Mary, to a porte cochere to protect her against the inclemency of the weather upon returning from a drive.  But this house, in the building of which she took so keen an interest, she was not destined to inhabit, although with that buoyancy of mind and tenacity to life that characterized her during her long years of weary illness, she contemplated being carried into it during the early days of last October, and even ordered fires to be lighted to carry off the dampness before she tried her new room.  By much persuasion, however, she was induced to postpone her removal from day to day; and finally, as she grew weaker and weaker, she decided to abandon that plan, and journey to New York while she could.  In two weeks more she had left us forever.

June 1.

Our first Sunday at Chappaqua.  We have a little church for a next-door neighbor, in which services of different sects are held on alternate Sundays, the pulpit being hospitably open to all denominations excepting Papists.  Three members of our little household, however—­mamma, Marguerite, and I—­belong to the grand old Church of Rome; so the carriage was ordered, and with our brother in religion, Bernard, the coachman, for a pioneer, we started to find a church or chapel of the Latin faith.  At Mount Kisco, a little town four miles distant, Bernard thought we might hear Mass, “but then it’s not the sort of church you ladies are used to,” he added, apologetically; “it’s a small chapel, and only rough working people go there.”