order to pursue that single, absorbing, exquisite
gratification. I am afraid, sir, you think
me very foolish. I know the first letter
I wrote to you was all senseless trash from beginning
to end; but I am not altogether the idle dreaming
being it would seem to denote. My father
is a clergyman of limited, though competent income,
and I am the eldest of his children. He expended
quite as much in my education as he could afford
in justice to the rest. I thought it therefore
my duty, when I left school, to become a governess.
In that capacity I find enough to occupy my thoughts
all day long, and my head and hands too, without
having a moment’s time for one dream of the
imagination. In the evenings, I confess, I do
think, but I never trouble any one else with my
thoughts. I carefully avoid any appearance
of preoccupation and eccentricity, which might lead
those I live amongst to suspect the nature of my pursuits.
Following my father’s advice—who
from my childhood has counselled me, just in the
wise and friendly tone of your letter—I
have endeavoured not only attentively to observe
all the duties a woman ought to fulfil, but to
feel deeply interested in them. I don’t
always succeed, for sometimes when I’m teaching
or sewing I would rather be reading or writing;
but I try to deny myself; and my father’s approbation
amply rewarded me for the privation. Once more
allow me to thank you with sincere gratitude.
I trust I shall never more feel ambitious to see
my name in print: if the wish should rise, I’ll
look at Southey’s letter, and suppress it.
It is honour enough for me that I have written
to him, and received an answer. That letter is
consecrated; no one shall ever see it, but papa
and my brother and sisters. Again I thank
you. This incident, I suppose, will be renewed
no more; if I live to be an old woman, I shall remember
it thirty years hence as a bright dream.
The signature which you suspected of being fictitious
is my real name. Again, therefore, I must
sign myself,
“C. Bronte.
“P.S.—Pray, sir, excuse me for writing to you a second time; I could not help writing, partly to tell you how thankful I am for your kindness, and partly to let you know that your advice shall not be wasted; however sorrowfully and reluctantly it may be at first followed.
“C. B.”
I cannot deny myself the gratification of inserting Southey’s reply:—
“Keswick, March 22, 1837.
“Dear Madam,
“Your letter has given me great pleasure, and I should not forgive myself if I did not tell you so. You have received admonition as considerately and as kindly as it was given. Let me now request that, if you ever should come to these Lakes while I am living here, you will let me see you. You would then think of me afterwards with the more good-will, because you would perceive that there is neither severity nor moroseness in