I fixed on Emily.  She deserved the reward, I knew.  How could the point be managed?  In extreme excitement, I wrote a letter home, which carried the day.  I made an appeal to aunt for assistance, which was answered by consent.  Things are not settled; yet it is sufficient to say we have a chance of going for half a year.  Dewsbury Moor is relinquished.  Perhaps, fortunately so.  In my secret soul, I believe there is no cause to regret it.  My plans for the future are bounded to this intention:  if I once get to Brussels, and if my health is spared, I will do my best to make the utmost of every advantage that shall come within my reach.  When the half-year is expired, I will do what I can.

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“Believe me, though I was born in April, the month of cloud and sunshine, I am not changeful.  My spirits are unequal, and sometimes I speak vehemently, and sometimes I say nothing at all; but I have a steady regard for you, and if you will let the cloud and shower pass by, be sure the sun is always behind, obscured, but still existing.”

At Christmas she left her situation, after a parting with her employers which seems to have affected and touched her greatly.  “They only made too much of me,” was her remark, after leaving this family; “I did not deserve it.”

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All four children hoped to meet together at their father’s house this December.  Branwell expected to have a short leave of absence from his employment as a clerk on the Leeds and Manchester Railway, in which he had been engaged for five months.  Anne arrived before Christmas-day.  She had rendered herself so valuable in her difficult situation, that her employers vehemently urged her to return, although she had announced her resolution to leave them; partly on account of the harsh treatment she had received, and partly because her stay at home, during her sisters’ absence in Belgium, seemed desirable, when the age of the three remaining inhabitants of the parsonage was taken into consideration.

After some correspondence and much talking over plans at home, it seemed better, in consequence of letters which they received from Brussels giving a discouraging account of the schools there, that Charlotte and Emily should go to an institution at Lille, in the north of France, which was highly recommended by Baptist Noel, and other clergymen.  Indeed, at the end of January, it was arranged that they were to set off for this place in three weeks, under the escort of a French lady, then visiting in London.  The terms were 50_l_. each pupil, for board and French alone, but a separate room was to be allowed for this sum; without this indulgence, it was lower.  Charlotte writes:—­

   “January 20th, 1842.