etcaeterorum. To come to the point:
Papa and aunt talk, by fits and starts, of our—id
est, Emily, Anne, and myself—commencing
a school! I have often, you know, said how
much I wished such a thing; but I never could conceive
where the capital was to come from for making such
a speculation. I was well aware, indeed,
that aunt had money, but I always considered that
she was the last person who would offer a loan for
the purpose in question. A loan, however,
she has offered, or rather intimates that
she perhaps will offer in case pupils can be
secured, an eligible situation obtained, &c.
This sounds very fair, but still there are matters
to be considered which throw something of a damp upon
the scheme. I do not expect that aunt will sink
more than 150_l_. in such a venture; and would
it be possible to establish a respectable (not
by any means a showy) school, and to commence
housekeeping with a capital of only that amount?
Propound the question to your sister, if you think
she can answer it; if not, don’t say a word
on the subject. As to getting into debt, that
is a thing we could none of us reconcile our mind
to for a moment. We do not care how modest,
how humble our commencement be, so it be made on sure
grounds, and have a safe foundation. In thinking
of all possible and impossible places where we
could establish a school, I have thought of Burlington,
or rather of the neighbourhood of Burlington.
Do you remember whether there was any other school
there besides that of Miss —–?
This is, of course, a perfectly crude and random idea.
There are a hundred reasons why it should be an
impracticable one. We have no connections,
no acquaintances there; it is far from home, &c.
Still, I fancy the ground in the East Riding is
less fully occupied than in the West. Much
inquiry and consideration will be necessary, of
course, before any place is decided on; and I fear
much time will elapse before any plan is executed
. . . Write as soon as you can. I shall
not leave my present situation till my future prospects
assume a more fixed and definite aspect.”
A fortnight afterwards, we see that the seed has been sown which was to grow up into a plan materially influencing her future life.
“August 7th, 1841.
“This is Saturday evening; I have put the children to bed; now I am going to sit down and answer your letter. I am again by myself—housekeeper and governess—for Mr. and Mrs. —– are staying at —–. To speak truth, though I am solitary while they are away, it is still by far the happiest part of my time. The children are under decent control, the servants are very observant and attentive to me, and the occasional absence of the master and mistress relieves me from the duty of always endeavouring to seem cheerful and conversable. Martha —–, it appears, is in the way of enjoying great advantages; so is Mary, for you will be surprised to hear that she is returning immediately to the Continent with