and looking on the sterile rocks about me, exclaimed—“They
do not cry, long live the Earl!” Nor, when night
came, accompanied by drizzling rain and cold, would
I return home; for I knew that each cottage rang with
the praises of Adrian; as I felt my limbs grow numb
and chill, my pain served as food for my insane aversion;
nay, I almost triumphed in it, since it seemed to afford
me reason and excuse for my hatred of my unheeding
adversary. All was attributed to him, for I confounded
so entirely the idea of father and son, that I forgot
that the latter might be wholly unconscious of his
parent’s neglect of us; and as I struck my aching
head with my hand, I cried: “He shall hear
of this! I will be revenged! I will not
suffer like a spaniel! He shall know, beggar
and friendless as I am, that I will not tamely submit
to injury!” Each day, each hour added to these
exaggerated wrongs. His praises were so many
adder’s stings infixed in my vulnerable breast.
If I saw him at a distance, riding a beautiful horse,
my blood boiled with rage; the air seemed poisoned
by his presence, and my very native English was changed
to a vile jargon, since every phrase I heard was coupled
with his name and honour. I panted to relieve
this painful heart-burning by some misdeed that should
rouse him to a sense of my antipathy. It was the
height of his offending, that he should occasion in
me such intolerable sensations, and not deign himself
to afford any demonstration that he was aware that
I even lived to feel them.
It soon became known that Adrian took great delight
in his park and preserves. He never sported,
but spent hours in watching the tribes of lovely and
almost tame animals with which it was stocked, and
ordered that greater care should be taken of them
than ever. Here was an opening for my plans of
offence, and I made use of it with all the brute impetuosity
I derived from my active mode of life. I proposed
the enterprize of poaching on his demesne to my few
remaining comrades, who were the most determined and
lawless of the crew; but they all shrunk from the peril;
so I was left to achieve my revenge myself. At
first my exploits were unperceived; I increased in
daring; footsteps on the dewy grass, torn boughs, and
marks of slaughter, at length betrayed me to the game-keepers.
They kept better watch; I was taken, and sent to prison.
I entered its gloomy walls in a fit of triumphant
extasy: “He feels me now,” I cried,
“and shall, again and again!”—I
passed but one day in confinement; in the evening I
was liberated, as I was told, by the order of the
Earl himself. This news precipitated me from
my self-raised pinnacle of honour. He despises
me, I thought; but he shall learn that I despise him,
and hold in equal contempt his punishments and his
clemency. On the second night after my release,
I was again taken by the gamekeepers—again
imprisoned, and again released; and again, such was
my pertinacity, did the fourth night find me in the