sits thus alone, her mind is filled with thoughts
of the past, which she cannot help contrasting with
the miserable present, till her reverie is interrupted
by the sound of approaching footsteps, which she soon
recognizes as those of her husband: she is much
surprised—for it is long, very long, since
he has returned to his home at so early an hour—and,
as he enters the room, her surprise increases when
she perceives that he is perfectly sober. As
he met her wondering gaze a kind expression rested
upon his countenance, and he addressed her saying:
“I do not wonder at your astonishment, dear
Mary, when I call to mind my past misconduct.
I have been a fiend in human shape thus to ill-treat
and neglect the best of wives; but I have made a resolve,
‘God helping’ me, that it shall be so no
longer.” Seating himself by her side, he
continued: “If you will listen to me, Mary,
I will tell you what caused me to form this resolution.
When I went out this evening I at once made my way
to the public house, where I have spent so much of
my time and money. Money, I had none, and, worse
than this, was owing the landlord a heavy bill.
Of late he had assailed me with duns every time I
entered the house; but so craving was the appetite
for drink that each returning evening still found me
among the loungers in the bar-room trusting to my
chance of meeting with some companion who would call
for a treat. It so happened that to-night none
of my cronies were present. When the landlord
found that I was still unable to settle the ‘old
score,’ as he termed it, he abused me in no
measured terms; but I still lingered in sight of the
coveted beverage; and knowing my inability to obtain
it my appetite increased in proportion. At length
I approached the bar, and begged him to trust me for
one more glass of brandy. I will not wound your
ears by repeating his reply; and he concluded by ordering
me from the house, telling me also never to enter
it again till I was able to settle the long score
already against me. The fact that I had been turned
from the door, together with his taunting language
stung me almost to madness. I strolled along,
scarce knowing or caring whither, till I found myself
beyond the limits of the city; and seating myself by
the roadside I gazed in silent abstraction over the
moonlit landscape; and as I sat thus I fell into a
deep reverie. Memory carried me back to my youthful
days when everything was bright with joyous hope and
youthful ambition. I recalled the time when I
wooed you from your pleasant country home, and led
you to the altar a fair young bride, and there pledged
myself before God and man to love, honour and cherish
you, till death should us part. Suddenly, as
if uttered by an audible voice, I seemed to hear the
words ‘William Harland, how have you kept your
vows?’ At that moment I seemed to suddenly awake
to a full sense of my fallen and degraded position.
What madness, thought I, has possessed me all this
time, thus to ruin myself and those dear to me?